Chiron Return
Hi Kite and Lapis
Thanks for replying to my question. Kite, I got hold of the Zanestein article - absolutely fascinating and so apt as to what I've been thinking/feeling at this time and Lapis, I had been discussing with my partner a feeling of what you discribed as, 'unfocusing and disengaging' the very night before I discovered that I was going through the Chiron Return and what it was all about! I must admit, I'm not entirely comfortable with how I'm feeling at the moment (I feel disorientated and a little low) but I also feel that eventually, something good will come from it (hopefully!) I also have other Chiron stuff going on too - sextile MC.
I found several articles and one by Cathy H. Burroughs says that Chiron, found between the orbit of Saturn (tradition) and Uranus (progress) 'forms a bridge between the old and the new' and 'between the reality basis of the practical and the multi-dimensional cosmic consciousness of the outer planets. It provides a gateway forward or back whichever is deemed essential for growth'.
Another paper by Roderick Benns - Creativity and the Chiron Return - discusses 'Chiron leaving behind Saturn, symbolically as it reaches for Uranus' and comments, 'it is our very struggle to resist death that defines our creative struggle'. I am very aware at the moment of being 'caught up' in Saturnian matters: the need to earn a living- to be able to pay the bills etc. I am resenting having to do this more and more and feel quite rebelious as I do want to 'leave behind Saturn'! (my work becomes more and more stressful and my employers less and less concerned)
Melanie Reinhart comments that, ' Chiron poses the question, ''What am I going to do with this last part of my life?' and Robert Hand says, 'don't be afraid to go down new paths' at this time. (I have been feeling this way for several months now but it has become more prevalent recently) Well, about four weeks ago, I had a conversation with my niece regarding a new venture she was beginning. As those of you who have seen my other posts will know, I used to sing for a living but gave it all up and just did a few gigs here and there. I then started to write my own stuff with my partner who is a musician and we had a measure of success.
However, he became unwell with mental illness and I looked after both of us for several years. He's now back on his feet and doing wonderfully, has a good job and has his confidence back. During this time we haven't done very much musically and my work (teaching disengaged/disaffected young people) has been very time- consuming, demanding and stressful. We both have been very aware that we had been neglecting the very thing that brought us together and that we loved doing so much. Now, back to my neice's new venture!
She also sings/plays piano and she told me that she had recently begun working towards a certificate in singing.(it's a particular style of singing which is becoming more and more popular in colleges etc as a preferred style of singing) Though both of us sing and play instruments and have done the gigs etc, it's just a natural thing and we don't have any qualifications in singing. I was immediately taken by what she was telling me and the more we talked the more we realised that we could do this thing together and perhaps form a family company- teaching singing/drama etc ( I used to teach drama in FE and my son also sings/dances for a living and my sister sings too. My partner would also be fully involved in the venture and so I have also recently enrolled on to the singing course and will be qualified in 12 -18 months. Just hope I can stay with my job for as long as I need to be there without becoming ill through stress!
I know this has been a bit long-winded but I think it fits entirely with 'Chiron leaving behind Saturn symbolically reaches for Uranus'. I will have to stay with Saturn (the old and my job) to finance me through to a new freedom (Uranus) and my dream of being where I should be naturally - with my music and creativty (Uranus). It's taking a chance and it may not be as secure as the corporate world of work but it is that, 'what am I going to do with this last part of my life' and it came about without me even noticing but is taking me back I feel, to what I should be doing with my life; music is so natural to and so much part of me.
Oh, just to add, another excellent article,' BRAVE NEW WORLD: Forward into the Fifties By Brian Clark.
Thanks
Mia
We've reached that magical point where we can have a relationship with ourselves alone as we expand back into more of what we are naturally. Much like how young children are still so close to Source. This is the other end of that process or spiral cycle.