I do not feel that way however I do harbor a instinctive grudge that I developed overtime towards feelings of weakness and inadequacy when on the social front and personality front. This makes sense, given my saturn (limits) being in the 1st house (house of character/house of self), which is probably what has caused me to contain said instinctive grudge.
Your sun also squares the expansive Jupiter. Squares aren't too despairing, tho. You're very young. Those two energies just need to learn how to live together with each other. In this case, it's Cap and Aries and it is very interesting that you have your Sun in your 10th house of social status and 1st house of how you basically approach the world on a subconscious level. These two energies, both on angles and both in very key houses might be part of that harboring of resentment and feelings of inadequacy. On a raw level, Jupiter is very beneficial in the 1st house tho, so you have that going for you
But then we also have those Mars and moon in the 12th house. Of course, your Jupiter is ruled by Mars so that's gonna add to that harboring of resentment. Moon in 12th can actually be extremely intuitive, but having your moon and Mars in the 12th house might mean you don't express your needs or assert yourself as much as you want to which can further lead to resentment and holding grudges toward others. Both are in Pisces which is ruled by Jupiter and Neptune. So again we have that 1st house Jupiter coming into play as a challenging figure
Your Neptune is in the 11th house tho which can relate to the collective consciousness and it's sextiling that intuitive 12th house Pisces moon. Perhaps that might give you a glimpse into the healing process. Tuning into the collective consciousness and using your intuition to guide you through your emotions and figuring out what you need and how to attain it, bursting that Mars out of that 12th house Pisces suppression of emotion and assertion
Your Pluto squares your Mars and this energy is ordinarily noted as being quite bestial, but with that Mars in Pisces and in the 12th house, I think that bestial energy is quelled a bit. With that powerful Pluto in the 8th house, it's own home, you may also use that bestial Mars-Pluto energy to transform yourself drastically. Now again we have that 1st house Jupiter coming into play since your Pluto is ruled by Jupiter. Given that both your Pluto and Mars are ruled by Jupiter, that energy might actually be more harmonious than usual. Use it. Rise like the proverbial phoenix from the ashes. Jupiter is expansive and adventurous. Perhaps that's key too
Problem is, of course, that that Jupiterian energy is at odds with your Saturn ruled sun which is quite opposing energy to Jupiter. Find that balance
You are lucky nothing in your chart is retrograde so it's more straightforward learning how to balance your energy
Imagine how it's gonna be when you can balance the disciplined and conservative Saturn(albeit in Aries) ruled Sun with your Jupiter. I mean you have your 10th house ruler in your 1st house. That's incredibly beneficial. YOu also have your Pluto's ruler in the 1st house. Transformation
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Anyone feel free to correct me if I'm offbase. I'm just learning how to read others' charts. I used very basic terms because I'm just getting my feed wet here