I would like to contribute my chart to the discussion.
Jan 8 1985 Toronto, Canada 13:32
My North Node isn't exact the ASC but it's within 3 degrees orb. I am tall and lanky. Everywhere I go people usually notice me, for better or worse. I seem to have a presence that stands out. I've traditionally looked at my NN/SN through 12th/6th house but lately I've been thinking more about 1st/7th houses. I also tend to look at my chart in Placidus but lately I've been using Whole Signs. The differences are interesting to consider but I'm not sure yet. My Sun/Jupiter in 9th house is very fitting, so I don't care where my Sun ends up because I'll always have a 9th house inner world that runs my life.
Everyone who knows me thinks I am the most enlightened person they know, but I don't feel that way about myself. People call me shamanic, though I don't relate to this term. I seem to have a profound impact on people in my day to day interactions with them even though I'm not intending to be that way. I seem to be the solution to everyone's existential angst without meaning to be. Many of my clients (as a clinical healer) and my friends have given me the nick name "Jesus" independent of each other. It has made me feel uncomfortable... but I think this is describing a quality they are sensing from me. My sense of NN/ASC is that it's like wearing your soul on your sleeve. The personality and the soul become presented together, so people sense a lot of depth and out-of-the-ordinary kinds of impressions from you. The same would be true of anyone whose soul was being projected in this way. Lots of lives, lots of experiences, lots of enigmatic stuff.
I am extremely psychic, to the point that I have taken part in studies on psychism. My day to day life is rather reclusive right now because I find the outside world over-stimulating. I can see auras and interpret what they mean. I hear the dead and sense the presence of non-human entities. I've astral projected since childhood. Very vivid dreams, also precognitive ones. I can read people like a book, which has its pros and cons. If you're helping them or they ask then cool, but if you don't want to know then you can't unsee it. But it makes my world very honest and no non-sense. When people talk with me, the more they talk the less I register their personality because so much other information comes through. I feel like a really sensitive hand that should be wearing a glove at all times, except for when it's removed by choice to touch something intentionally. I struggle with the glove, and I seem to get more and more psychic as the years go on.
Everyone thinks psychic powers are cool but they don't know what they're asking for. I've met people more sensitive than I am who have to live in the middle of nowhere because they can't handle society, or they end up in mental hospitals. I've had more than one nervous breakdown from things that the mundane world doesn't understand, like spirit attacks. It's also not "cool" to be a child whose parents don't know what's going on and you're too young to understand it either. Psychism... I mean real-deal psychism... makes life very hard. You have to contend with a lot more. You see a lot more but you also have to withstand a lot more. And it's all in hiding because the mainstream reality is not aware of any of it. All the psychic residues I have to contend with on a daily basis if I'm outside are not fun. Bright lights, smells, people's weird, unclean energy that they never remove because our culture doesn't teach anyone about it. Sometimes I wish I was not born this way, but it is what it is.
I'm a magician on a lineage path. Won't say which one. I turned to traditional magic systems because they not only accepted stuff I have always experienced, they have actual tools for how to work with it. I mean really work with it, almost predictably. A + B = C kind of stuff. It's also a way for me to progress within my gifts since there's never any end to learning and development.
I would further describe my life by saying that I experience non-ordinary reality A LOT, to the point where it's normal to me. Strange stuff doesn't phase me. When people tell me their personal problems or shames, I just say, "Yup"... and they are shocked at how accepting I am. It's not really acceptance so much as it is nothing shocks me anymore. Even if I didn't seek to be a professional who did this kind of work, I would be doing it anyway. I would be healing people even if I was homeless. I can't change the channel that I am, even though sometimes I wish I could.
As a child I had a hard time with a lot of this. I'd suffer spirit attacks while sleeping and night terrors. I'd have memories of having special powers that can no longer manifest in this life. Some of those powers did manifest for real during maturity, like the ability to take all this complex etheric content and put it into clear, readable language for humanity. Or being able to touch an object and know its origins. Too bad the ability the fly wasn't one of them, though walking through walls or flying in the astral is a pretty good close second.
I've had life threatening illness since my Saturn return. The illness has, honestly, felt like a major processing of karma from this life and past lives. I can't deny it anymore. I even have dreams about it. I feel that in a past life I abused power or authority somehow. Illness always finds me and I fear being debilitated forever by what's happened. I am trying my best to find a cure or at least an effective treatment but I fear (without really knowing) that this may be the price I have to pay for the way I am. The more clean and pure I become, the more sensitive I become, and the more that offensive things injure me. The geni can't be put back into the bottle.
Regardless of the reason, I feel like this life is fated and that major work is being done in this life. When I was younger I was pretty arrogant and thought that this specialness made me superior. I also went out of my way to try and do the work in an ego way. Since getting sick my ego has softened a lot to the point where I can listen a lot more closely to spiritual queues.
I try not to read too much into narratives and specific meanings anymore. I am not attached to astrology even.
Right now I'm trying to figure out (or grow into) a way to serve humanity while in this terribly sick body, while also not getting bogged down in the mundane world too much. I feel that my birth, while challenging to a suicidal degree, is important. Not more important than anyone else, but just... important. I have gifts, abilities, insights and a soul connection that is hard to convey to others. The problem is that it makes me feel remote from everyone else. I feel other worldly to myself.
I'm here to be a healer. What that means is still evolving. I went the scholastic route and the travel route, but I've plateaued for the time being. My Saturn return unleashed health hell into my life. I sometimes wonder if I'm in the cosmic time-out box or the penalty box. This has been a huge period of downtime. One of the benefits is that it's challenging my perceived place of my role in the world. Everything that I thought defined me before has mostly been obliterated. What's left feels real... but I haven't totally come to terms with it yet.
Sorry to write on and on, I just wanted to provide a case study. For what it's worth, I have done astrology for 10 years now and I have never come across another person with NN on the ASC. Someone once had it on the MC but I don't remember the details of their life.
Because my ASC ruler is exalted I'm hoping this lends to a longer life than what I've heard of others with NN/ASC. Part of me doesn't really care anymore if I die. I don't mean that in a depressed way. It's just... being aware of some different levels of what goes on in this universe, I trust there's a plan, even if I don't know it. If I die then I guess I'm not needed here anymore.