Aha!
Saturn has been very close to my ascendant the past few months and yep the "preludes" to what is coming next have been happening.
Changes at work (although not for me really - maybe more responsibility but that is OK), changes with family (not good but good for me as I do not have a good relationship with my family). I have plans to move in about a month or two.
I am 23 degrees Scorpio Rising so Saturn officially "hit" my ascendant a few days ago.
Here is one thing I am especially liking so far. I have Neptune conjunct ascendant and Moon conjunct the Neptune - all in my 1st. I am very emotional, With Saturn conjuncting my Asc AND my Neptune (it is within 3 degrees), I notice I am alot less emotional than normal. Having Saturn there calming my normally very emotional nature and I feel more "grounded" where that is considered. I am kind of liking this.
Another thing is Saturn type figures have been entering myself. I have come in contact with a few person who have charts similar to mine and we have been talking about it. That is just what I need right now. Astrological allies on my side.
And yet another thing is that Saturn has lifted a fog on how I viewed my father and it is different (not good but good that I figure out the truth). In fact Saturn in the 12th and 1st - all skeletons come out of the closet.
I am finally learning how to really be a Scorpio Rising - strong, fighting and finally working toward my North Node in Pisces. My new goal in this life is to be at the Phoenix level. I have learned that the other things I so wanted out of life, that others have, are not meant for me to have them. So now that I have to face the sobering truth, I can stop forcing myself to try to get those things. Things that every time in the past I have tried for and have failed. There is a lot of psychological changing and healing - good stuff though.
Saturn will go back and forth over my Asc a few times before it exits out of Scorpio in the next year or two. I normally don't like Saturn and I don't understand Capricorn (I have no planets in Cap) but with Saturn in my 1st, I am finally starting to appreciate it.
Saturn conjuncting the Asc means new beginnings. The old period is gone. I am winding things up and leaving my old ways of being and thinking behind. Scorpio Risings job in life is to turn the darkness into light. I lived in darkness for a long time, bewildered and chronically disillusioned. No more. I think it will be a lonely journey but I finally recognize it as the right one for now even if I have to do it alone - but such is the life path of a Scorpio Asc.
A description of it:
"This is one of the most significant times of your life. During this time your responsibilities will increase considerably, and you will try to eliminate everything in your life that is not necessary to fulfilling them. Therefore your life will become more complex and simpler at the same time. You are finishing up certain tasks in your life and going into a five- to eight-year period of relatively quiet preparation for a new beginning. You will be cutting some elements out of your life and working hard to complete others.
During this time you may have less freedom of movement than usual because of the pressure of circumstances and the need to get things done. Old tasks that have never been completed must be finished now. At work, you may have to exert more effort in order to get the job done. Your superiors may give you even more responsibility than you would choose to have. This may not be a very light-hearted time, but it should be quite productive. But do not start out on a completely new project, because in a few years you may find that you do not have the material or psychological resources to complete it. Finish what is unfinished and simplify your life.
Good relationships will not suffer appreciably during this time, but bad ones will break up completely. You are withdrawing from everything in your life that is unnecessary or in the way of your development during the next few years. Bad or difficult relationships may be among the elements that are discarded.
Try to avoid building a wall between yourself and others, for this is a great danger now. Duty, responsibility and obligations do not preclude personally satisfying relationships, even though you may feel that they do. If you cut yourself off from others unnecessarily, you will become lonely and depressed. The people who belong in your everyday life are very important for you now, especially since you are excluding those who do not belong. Often it is good to seek out the company and advice of older people, for they have the insight and understanding you need."
