Ok! Ι have been thinking what is that i feel excited to do! Ι started thinking about jobs..dancer, painter, open a painting lab in combination with other fine arts e.g. painting on silk etc., to be an English teacher, actress, writer. I wanted to do them all! But how practicable can it be? Also, i felt guilty i wasn't a dancer, because i had a real talent and i felt i threw it! But did i really want to be a dancer? If i did, why had i stopped? Anyway..I started thinking since it's late for ballet and all this stuff, which demand plenty of effort and i don't want it, to combine English which i have taught for few years with fine arts..It sounds more intriguing and sweet and different and the best choice than others.. I think the expression "eh, to have a job to make ends meet" sounds ....passive may i say..? pathetic..another word...and i don't think i want to be passive anymore and compromise and work for other people who tell me how to think...i feel i need to express myself... I feel like a capable-useless! So, I think i would like to start an English Language School combined with Arts, in other words Teaching English as a Second Language blended with Fine Arts...painting, theatre, fairytales etc. All these things definitely are fancies..will they come true..not? We will see...