Thank you for having this board! I am mentally on my knees begging for help. I have Pisces sun, Gemini rising and moon.. and gemini throughout my chart... So, basically, there's a party going on inside of me with a bunch of kids all wanting something different! LOL!!! Here's how it effects me... I'm 52 yrs old, no career, not married, constantly moving.... It seems everytime I decide on a career? Guaranteed within 24 its changed. So, my chart says Psychology, my heart says cake designer, another part says real estate mgt/ investor.. and the last part says.. get married and be a wife-volunteer, dinners, theatre. In reality? I sit.. half the time confused, half the time burnt out.
I first thought it was my psyche.. anxiety/restlessness/exhaustion/ depression... been to tons of healers. Now I believe its my astrological makeup.
HOW DO I SETTLE THESE ENERGIES?
Please help me! Tired of being broke, unsettled, lack of purpose, alone...
TriciaJoelle
Hello TriciaJoelle,
I signed into the forum to respond to a private message, and happened to notice your thread, which grabbed my attention. I'll make a few comments, as some things jumped out at me when I glanced at your chart. As I'm still very ill, I'll have to resist my usual Mercury in Sag tendency to make a long post and be brief. LOL
I feel very empathically for you, as I have the exact same problem. I've made some progress with it recently, and Britterfly's response was very helpful to me, as well. ( Thank you, Britterfly!
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The first thing that jumped out at me was that Mercury in Aries is tightly conjunct your South Node in the 11th house. Mercury also disposits your Ascendant, Mars, and Moon - as well as your Pluto in Virgo. Mercury rules your 1st, 2nd, and 5th houses, and disposits the ruler of your 3rd- the Moon. This means that communication and free will issues are a big part of your karma/life lessons. The conjunction to the South Node shows that this is an ingrained pattern that caused you problems in past lives.
Mercury in Aries in the 11th points to issues around anger vs assertiveness, getting in touch with and communicating one's true desires, as well as having hope (Aries) in the future ( 11th). It can also deal with unhealed rebellion issues (11th), which leave you full of anger and hostility ( Aries).
For further input on troublemaking potential - look to ruler of 7th, Jupiter in Sag, in the 7th, conjunct the DSC. This can point to issues of repeatedly attracting unwanted "teachers" in your life, "know-it-alls", who want to tell you how to live your life. Also, of course, check yourself to see if you are being this way in interaction with others. Jupiter in Sag in 7th also likes to make decisions for another, and can point to past lives with arranged marriages - where you didn't have a say in it. The Gemini/Sag polarity has a huge lot to deal with free will issues - other people trying to make you go along with things you didn't agree to do, or vice versa. This is probably the main reason you are having such confusion and burn-out. Work on your sense of free will, and of giving it to others in your life.
Also, on the subject of Jupiter in Sag conjunct the DSC - the good side of Jupiter in Sag is that you can trust your intuition and feel confident in your interactions with others. If you don't trust your intuition, you are probably engaging in the downside - can want others to agree with you to boost your confidence in your ideas/beliefs.
One other comment.... looking at your 4th house, which is home life, childhood, and also ingrained patterns from "the past" - whether that is childhood or past lives... similar to South Node in karmic interpretation. This can show that you or someone in your life played out the roles of these planets in your home. Pluto in Virgo - someone who forced or was forced to work/ do chores around the home. Uranus in Leo - someone who was tyrannical - overbearing, wanted to be center of attention- prone to outbursts of temper if they didn't get their way. The Pluto in Virgo person may have provoked this in the Uranus in Leo person. OR the Uranus in Leo person could have been the one forcing the Pluto in Virgo person. Both planets are retrograde, showing there is inner work to be done to resolve the energetic expression of these planets.
Hope that helps, and good luck!
(Yes. For me, that WAS brief!
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