@rahu
Thank you! I'll look into it ^^
@Solar Flare
Personally, if I'm being completely honest with myself, I'd have to reluctantly admit I'm emotional. But I also have a great deal of trouble admitting or showing those emotions as well, so you're spot on there. (Oh how I'm cringing just typing this out to strangers on the internet. xD)
I haven't really begun to delve into who I am. I'm coming to realize I don't know much about myself as a person, so I really thank you for helping out with that. After some (A lot of sitting here and reviewing myself as not myself tonight) thought, I would say I'm a pretty sensitive person, on the inside, I guess. But on the outside I present a sort of "tough" (for lack of a better word) persona. Like I don't care about what you say, what you do, or even you sort of thing. But on the inside I'd be breaking down into a puddle of tears thing.
Thank you for your response. It helped immensely. I really appreciate it.
@Purple9
Let me start off with a thank you. I hope the gratitude I'm feeling will somehow reach you through your computer. You've also helped me realize a little bit about myself that was definitely obvious but I was still overlooking. Thank you so much. <3
Stability: Check.
Security: Check. Stability and Security were hard for me to find as a kid, so knowing what's on the other side of the fence already, keeps me working to keep both of these in my life as much as possible.
Traditional: This one not so much. I believe this is simply because I had a very open minded father, who taught me to be more flexible and open minded as a child, so I grew up more with a progressive outlook thanks to him.
If I didn't have a book smart father, I think I might've very well been someone with a traditional outlook. Both sides of my family besides my dad and mom are very traditional people.
Materialistic: I wanna say no so bad lol! But then I see my $60 Converse sneakers sitting the corner I got two years ago, $100 worth of new clothes in the other corner...To be fair this is the first time I've went shopping in like three years. Now I have four pairs of pants
Yay me.
It's not like I'm really concerned with having new clothes or other things, but it is a necessity. *Sighs* And I really do hate shopping. For anything. But especially clothes. Because you have to try them on to see if they fit and all and that's annoying. xD
Yes. Yes. YES. I feel so frustrated with myself when it comes to my emotions. As I said above, even here typing among strangers is a struggle. I don't want to share my emotions because I feel like whenever I had, I got emotionally hurt so I just don't typically share them. With anyone. Ever.
And you are right. Completely. I'm a pretty insecure/inhibited person. Huh. I had always had a niggling suspicion about it, but writing it out in black on a white background at night is just a blatant eye opener to my inner issues. xD
Oh gosh my calling. Uh oh. I must be in an unfortunate position if I'm still not sure what my calling is and it's that important to me.
Even though I'm introverted and have a general dislike and anxiety for crowds, and I've gotten into the thinking that people are not to be trusted until proven otherwise, I feel like I really want to be around people.
Not a large group of people, but lots of people in little doses. I dunno. I've always told myself I did not like people and I was better off without them, but I also want to hear and listen to people too. To get to know them and their cultures or lives. xD Could that possibly be a calling?
Thank you again for the answer and all the time you put in to answer. I appreciate your help so much. I'm not very touchy feely with people but I'm throwing you a hug through the computer right now. ;w;