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Here I am -- struggling along with this life-plan which has challenged me for, yea these many years. And now I'm on the verge of -- well, I'm old enough I could be a grandmother.
Born: Late, with umbilical cord tied in a knot. Could have been dead, but instead, have simply spent a lifetime going in circles, always trying to "find myself, find myself."
Scorpio Asc opposes Jupiter: Compulsive risk taker. I try things that shouldn't be attempted. Also, I'm compulsively honest (in my own opinion).
I no longer tell people in my everyday life about me and astrology. They already thought I was weird, and they really think I'm weird if I let them know about me and the stars! I never thought I was secretive (Scorpio), but staying "in the closet" around "straight" people (non-astrology lovers) seems to require more discretion than I have naturally.
Venus & Mars in Pisces: I'm more fragile than I might seem.
Leo Midheaven conjunct Pluto: I want attention, but I hate to admit it. Also, I feel my Pluto is the focal planet of a Yod -- I think I am not comfortable with power. I solve this by simply being alone, a lot. Solitude is ok.
In my childhood, I grew up in a small town where my parent was conspicuous and controversial. Think: mayor -judge - abortionist - psychotherapist - union leader. Something like that. As a result, I was also conspicuous, even though I didn't want to be. Aquarian Sun can go either way -- eccentric, or one-of-the-crowd. I always just wanted to be accepted.
Aries Moon in 5th house: Ditto above -- I want attention, but I hate to admit it. Also, I'm somewhat childish -- not immature, but somewhat demanding. I don't have kids, but I'm helping my aged parents manage some of their affairs (over-active Saturn influences in that Grand Cross.). I can be brash (and fun-loving), but with my Aries ruler -- Mars -- in Pisces, I'm not as abrasive as some Aries folks can be. (I'm too impatient to be a hands-on caregiver.)
Venus/Mars conjunct: I'm as comfortable with my male energies as with my female ones. I like to build houses, install flooring, have sex -- do all those Marsy type things. But these planets are in Pisces, in the 4th house. I'm a whiner, overly sensitive (there's a Grand Trine there, sort of, in the water signs -- Asc, Venus/Mars, and Uranus).
(Depending on orb, you could say Venus is the focal planet of another Yod.)
Aquarius Sun (and Mercury, and Aquarian North Node) in 3rd house -- Midheaven ruler is Sun: I think of myself as a writer, but I hate rejection :| (sigh). I worked as a reporter for a small newspaper many years ago, but the truth is, I don't really care about what goes on in the world around me -- I'd rather write essays/ personal columns, etc. Currently, I'm finally attempting, once more, to try and market my writing.
Saturn in the 12th (Pisces) house and Venus/Mars in Pisces: I am uncontrollably sucked into a "compassion" mode, even when the person I'm talking with doesn't really want compassion. Also, some tendency towards denial and self delusion, even though I think I'm so ultra-honest.
Elements:
Pretty evenly balanced. I sort of feel my cranky, critical Capricorn Mercury holds me back. When you look at the charts of some really successful athletes and other "stars," you see that they weren't bogged down with this much "common sense." I don't mean to be overly-critical or ridiculously thorough -- but my 3rd house Capricorn Mercury squares Saturn/Neptune. This is just how I do it.
Strong influences:
Uranus -- my Aquarian Sun ruler: it touches almost everything on my chart, except for my Sun. Talk about eccentric! And yet, I'm always trying to look normal. Uranus is in my 8th house -- sexual partnerships, and power. I'd say this area is important to me, but I have so many important areas in my life and on my chart...
Grand Cross: well, at least it's in the Cardinal signs -- that's a blessing! it's in two water houses (8 &12), an air house (3rd) and a fire house (5th).
Grand Trine: Asc (Scorpio) Venus/mars (Pisces) and Uranus (Cancer). All in Water houses.
Notice, all my personal planets are in the personal houses. That public world is fairly foreign to me.
I'm a mixture of whiny (water) critical (earth Mercury) wants attention (firy) and a certain amount of impartial (air Sun -- Aquarius).
:?: I'm only beginning to explore Chiron and the other asteroids. Maybe my attitude towards career has been affected by 10th house Lilith.
:?: I have no idea of the significance of Chiron in the 2nd house, conjunct my 3rd house Mercury.
Anyway-- this is me. Hello!
- C Jayne
http://img99.imageshack.us/my.php?image=cjaynenatalchart2yl.png
Here I am -- struggling along with this life-plan which has challenged me for, yea these many years. And now I'm on the verge of -- well, I'm old enough I could be a grandmother.
Born: Late, with umbilical cord tied in a knot. Could have been dead, but instead, have simply spent a lifetime going in circles, always trying to "find myself, find myself."
Scorpio Asc opposes Jupiter: Compulsive risk taker. I try things that shouldn't be attempted. Also, I'm compulsively honest (in my own opinion).
I no longer tell people in my everyday life about me and astrology. They already thought I was weird, and they really think I'm weird if I let them know about me and the stars! I never thought I was secretive (Scorpio), but staying "in the closet" around "straight" people (non-astrology lovers) seems to require more discretion than I have naturally.
Venus & Mars in Pisces: I'm more fragile than I might seem.
Leo Midheaven conjunct Pluto: I want attention, but I hate to admit it. Also, I feel my Pluto is the focal planet of a Yod -- I think I am not comfortable with power. I solve this by simply being alone, a lot. Solitude is ok.
In my childhood, I grew up in a small town where my parent was conspicuous and controversial. Think: mayor -judge - abortionist - psychotherapist - union leader. Something like that. As a result, I was also conspicuous, even though I didn't want to be. Aquarian Sun can go either way -- eccentric, or one-of-the-crowd. I always just wanted to be accepted.
Aries Moon in 5th house: Ditto above -- I want attention, but I hate to admit it. Also, I'm somewhat childish -- not immature, but somewhat demanding. I don't have kids, but I'm helping my aged parents manage some of their affairs (over-active Saturn influences in that Grand Cross.). I can be brash (and fun-loving), but with my Aries ruler -- Mars -- in Pisces, I'm not as abrasive as some Aries folks can be. (I'm too impatient to be a hands-on caregiver.)
Venus/Mars conjunct: I'm as comfortable with my male energies as with my female ones. I like to build houses, install flooring, have sex -- do all those Marsy type things. But these planets are in Pisces, in the 4th house. I'm a whiner, overly sensitive (there's a Grand Trine there, sort of, in the water signs -- Asc, Venus/Mars, and Uranus).
(Depending on orb, you could say Venus is the focal planet of another Yod.)
Aquarius Sun (and Mercury, and Aquarian North Node) in 3rd house -- Midheaven ruler is Sun: I think of myself as a writer, but I hate rejection :| (sigh). I worked as a reporter for a small newspaper many years ago, but the truth is, I don't really care about what goes on in the world around me -- I'd rather write essays/ personal columns, etc. Currently, I'm finally attempting, once more, to try and market my writing.
Saturn in the 12th (Pisces) house and Venus/Mars in Pisces: I am uncontrollably sucked into a "compassion" mode, even when the person I'm talking with doesn't really want compassion. Also, some tendency towards denial and self delusion, even though I think I'm so ultra-honest.
Elements:
Pretty evenly balanced. I sort of feel my cranky, critical Capricorn Mercury holds me back. When you look at the charts of some really successful athletes and other "stars," you see that they weren't bogged down with this much "common sense." I don't mean to be overly-critical or ridiculously thorough -- but my 3rd house Capricorn Mercury squares Saturn/Neptune. This is just how I do it.
Strong influences:
Uranus -- my Aquarian Sun ruler: it touches almost everything on my chart, except for my Sun. Talk about eccentric! And yet, I'm always trying to look normal. Uranus is in my 8th house -- sexual partnerships, and power. I'd say this area is important to me, but I have so many important areas in my life and on my chart...
Grand Cross: well, at least it's in the Cardinal signs -- that's a blessing! it's in two water houses (8 &12), an air house (3rd) and a fire house (5th).
Grand Trine: Asc (Scorpio) Venus/mars (Pisces) and Uranus (Cancer). All in Water houses.
Notice, all my personal planets are in the personal houses. That public world is fairly foreign to me.
I'm a mixture of whiny (water) critical (earth Mercury) wants attention (firy) and a certain amount of impartial (air Sun -- Aquarius).
:?: I'm only beginning to explore Chiron and the other asteroids. Maybe my attitude towards career has been affected by 10th house Lilith.
:?: I have no idea of the significance of Chiron in the 2nd house, conjunct my 3rd house Mercury.
Anyway-- this is me. Hello!
- C Jayne