Hi,
The generation into which you were born has a major planetary alignment in Capricorn that ' interferes' with the rational manifested structure which normally keeps the sign grounded. This allows for many possibilities of an 'alternate reality' to that which others perceive.
The planet that guides one's sense of reality is in a position that could take this out of its true proportion, through which internal fears of 'what could happen if' could arise which, in turn, can cause depression.
By the same token, the alignment is not necessarily negative of nature, as 'visual reality' through computerised games, t.v., sci-fi films, and (modern) art forms have made their mark upon society and brought rewards to many who are able to make their creative fantasy seem real. The challenge lies in the establishing for one's self that which is fiction and what is a physical actuality.
Opposite this alignment in Capricorn is a large stellium of planets in Cancer; a sign that bases its reality according to how its inner feelings interpret situations. Cancer feeling does not lie too deep under the surface, and it is the most easily hurt of all signs. A word, an action, any small slight can be construed other than intended, causing an immediate passive retaliation.
With the two sides combined it is the difference between what is tangibly real and what isn't. It can seem like an emotional seesaw, especially as the functions that govern the psyche and mind are together strongly involved on one side of the seesaw. What is taken as manifested reality may only be based upon a vividly strong imaginative quality that 'feels' situations very intensely and can become compulsive of nature, if not adequately (self) controlled.
Yet in its positive expression the strong imagination can work with and find a structure in the real world.
You are young enough to confront your issues and direct a positive change for the future. Therapy has already been mentioned to you. Opening up about your concerns instead of keeping the hatches down would be a good start, if not already taken. Aquarius rising can be a bit 'my way' fixated, yet it is one sign that can adapt to change, simply because nothing ever remains the same.