There are two astrological problems that are causing your difficulty, but they are temporary. Your natal chart, your innate tendencies, does not speak of such difficulties.
First, transiting Saturn/Pluto is square your Moon. You feel deeply depressed. It will come and go over the next several months.
Second, and much worse, you have Solar Arc Saturn crossing your natal Ascendant. This is one of the greatest challenges of your life. You will be overcome with feelings of loss and hopelessness. You will be overcome with feelings of shame and inadequacy. Your world has turned dark and shadowy.
You have lost someone in your life, or you have experienced tragic losses of a very important kind. You must understand that such a tragic time will only happen once in your life, and it will be temporary. It may take as much as a year and a half before the sadness and burden disappear and leave you normal again.