With Mercury in the 3rd square Saturn, I wonder if you feel like your parents compared you to each other. Do you feel like your achievements were measured to hers and yours were found wanting?
Mercury square Saturn may feel unfairly judged and criticized by parents and authority figures.
I still have difficulty with the question, because I wouldn't measure human worth as a list of achievements. But with your sun square Mars, you probably have a competitive streak.
Growing up, and continuing to this day all I've ever heard was "Star Searcher! See how good a job your sister is doing." Never the other way around. She always got the praises and honors.
However, my mother has complemented me about the hair I was born with. It's thick and straight with a bit of a wave. Whenever I have gotten perms they lasted for a very long time. My sister has straight thin hair.
Except for that cavity I've been ignoring, I basically have iron teeth. Although my sister is a lot more diligent in her dental care, she has had root canals, etc.
I bring these up because although I am luckier than her in these areas it is only luck. I'd like to know of anything that I do better than her. (This includes areas that I haven't tried yet.)
(I'm throwing things out there, because I clearly have no clue.) Do I write, sing, or act better? Is my relationship with my boyfriend more solid than her relationship with her boyfriend? Am I less judgemental and more compassionate than her because I've had to deal with more obstacles? Anything?
Yeah I know I'm fishing for compliments and groveling. I know it's not becoming of me, but whatever.
Growing up, and continuing to this day all I've ever heard was "Star Searcher! See how good a job your sister is doing." Never the other way around. She always got the praises and honors.
However, my mother has complemented me about the hair I was born with. It's thick and straight with a bit of a wave. Whenever I have gotten perms they lasted for a very long time. My sister has straight thin hair.
Except for that cavity I've been ignoring, I basically have iron teeth. Although my sister is a lot more diligent in her dental care, she has had root canals, etc.
I bring these up because although I am luckier than her in these areas it is only luck. I'd like to know of anything that I do better than her. (This includes areas that I haven't tried yet.)
(I'm throwing things out there, because I clearly have no clue.) Do I write, sing, or act better? Is my relationship with my boyfriend more solid than her relationship with her boyfriend? Am I less judgemental and more compassionate than her because I've had to deal with more obstacles? Anything?
Yeah I know I'm fishing for compliments and groveling. I know it's not becoming of me, but whatever.
Sorry for the late reply. I think the cold medicine I took mid-afternoon has a sedative. (Or maybe it's the in my 6th house kicking in.)
As I was saying . . .
My sister
- Has normal to excellent eye and fine motor coordination, so when she has to craft/sew her work comes out really well
- Never had any learning or speech disorders
As for me
- C+ student in high school. Some classes I did well, like English and Social Studies. Some classes I did poorly, like Math and P.E.
- Took my 9 years to get my BA degree. I bounced around 4 colleges, none of them top tier prestige schools.
- I may have learning disabilities. I know I'm bad at arithmetic, and I am client of a temp agency that specializes in job placement for people with disabilities and medical problems.
- I'm pushing 50 and I still don't have a career and know what I am best suited for.
- My current temp position pays $15.68/hr.
- I'm not FAT, but I am chubby. (Is this a in thing or a thing in my chart? Or both?)
- I like cooking, but I always make f*ck ups and can't get a dish right the first time (unlike her).
- I'm socially awkward and have difficulty making close friends. Although I never have ill intentions, I've been criticized for being rude and unfriendly. (It's not a complete loss--I have a lot of friendly acquaintances.)