Sion De Freitas
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I was diagnosed with Aspergers when i was a child. I've always tried not to associate myself with it because its considered a "disability", but to me, i feel that it's a gift, a very misunderstood gift. I feel like i have a Very hightened awareness, a hypersensitive nervous system, just surreal-like perception. Life goes very easy for me, i have a karma like way of dealing with things, because i think by being positive, positive things will manifest in my life, and it works . I have a good job with good income, a great social life, and i have a good sense of direction in my life, because i've realized what my dream is, and that every step i make is a step closer to reaching that dream, and that meeting people is almost destiny like. I have alot of strength for my size, im 6'4" 150 lbs. and used to squat 300 lbs, and can go out and run 10k no problem. I feel like the only problem in my life is that i easily lose myself in my surroundings.. it's like i lose my identity and get enveloped in the external world, and can have overwhelming feelings of things i can't usually put into a description, because its so deep and intense. Most of the time i have a strong mental buzz feeling, which makes it hard to sleep because its like my mind is on overdrive, all i do is think think think. Probably the most wierd experience to live with for me is how lucid my dreams are, while awake i can vividly remember and "feel" my dreams... i've had alot of brutal deaths in my dreams which disturbs me, but i think symbolize the death and rebirth of something inside me to be a better person, that a change was needed. This is just the tip of the iceberg of what crazy things i experience. Alot of the times i think "wait, im just human". lol.
I think my chart may be a bit odd or intense.
heres my chart
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Excellent post. Sums up most of my life