I really need help!! It's so important!

Will things get better for me soon?

I've been struggling for the past 3-4 years. My life has been falling apart. Why? I have nothing but good intentions.

I literally have lost everything. Tears are currently wetting this keyboard.

this is horary forum. post a horary chart instead of natal chart.
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=8576
then post the chart in the appropriate horary sub forum (career, relational etc) that will give you more chance to get horary reading