waterbaby12
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Re: will it ever get better for me? ever? how to confront past life karmic debts
What do you mean everything always does go wrong - are you saying that you can see clearly why I am PLAGUED with bad luck and terrible happenings?? My nana was always the one to look out for me and push me to do things in school like complete assignments etc to ensure I graduated (I am intelligent but cannot pay attention to things I don't care about) - she died last summer and my heart is still so broken I haven't even tried to pick the pieces up.
My mummy is so good to me - an aquarius and the best mother I could ever ask for.
My dad is out the picture since I was 12 and he was a sociopath and a liar and emotionally manipulative to the both of us.
Yeah, counselling and psychiatry is something I would have picked for you too because of all your 12th house placements and your exalted Venus. You're only 22, so not wanting to spend your life helping other people is normal and healthy. BUT don't be surprised if that Martian energy comes back and you find yourself humbled, time and again.
Within the next few years of personal growth, your compassion will grow and you will have the focus to help others. But right now you want to concentrate on yourself? That's not selfish. The fact you think it's selfish, is your Venus Pisces talking...you are stuck between your own desires and the guilt you feel for everything around you. That 'guilt' will turn into passion to helping others. But first, psychiatry.
Are you studying? Even if you are not studying psychology, you could go to college and do a counselling course, which you will be learning about how other people's mind works in the course. I understand you're more interested in the facts than helping just now, that could be the 12th house influence of preferring to 'observe,' but if you do psychiatry, it will inevitably lead to helping people.
And btw, everything does always go wrong. It's not in your head, everything usually goes wrong. The difference is if you have people around you to help pick up the pieces then it doesn't seem as bad. Do you have a close-knit family, or someone who looks out for you?
What do you mean everything always does go wrong - are you saying that you can see clearly why I am PLAGUED with bad luck and terrible happenings?? My nana was always the one to look out for me and push me to do things in school like complete assignments etc to ensure I graduated (I am intelligent but cannot pay attention to things I don't care about) - she died last summer and my heart is still so broken I haven't even tried to pick the pieces up.
My mummy is so good to me - an aquarius and the best mother I could ever ask for.
My dad is out the picture since I was 12 and he was a sociopath and a liar and emotionally manipulative to the both of us.