It's also the suddenness.
We had the call yesterday morning that she was having difficulty breathing, and they put her on oxygen. In the afternoon, she had been transferred to ER at the nearby hospital.
This morning she was in coma, this afternoon the call came she had passed away. Once it enters the lungs, the virus paralyses the respiratory system. Which is why they put patients on ventilators, but everyone who has done it tells about how painful it is.
In addition, we weren't allowed to be close to her, even now in the hospital morgue, Because of Easter the funeral will be on Tuesday (Easter Monday is a national holiday here), and only two persons can attend. It's very painful thinking of a loved one passing away and you were not able to be close to them, to hold their hand, to say a last goodbye. And it is happening to so many people.
When will it all end?
Thank you all for your support and kind words. And your readings. I was in no state to do it properly, too close to my heart.