walkingparadox
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Hello. I'm looking for astrological explanation of my state of being.
Since childhood I feel horrible, tired and lost like I'm wasting my time, waiting all my life hopelessly for something more... something extraordinary but I cannot define it so there's no solution. I mean, people have realistic goals - being part of happy family, providing successfull career etc. but it's predictable, planned, somehow... limited??? so it won't be fully satifing. Sometimes I'm even able to cry because of anger that there's no higher meaning in my life.
I escape from daily issues by reading fantasy books, dreaming what could happen to me, having a walk and visiting deserted places to feel thrill thanks to mysterious atmosphere.
Is it typical for sick, strong air/aquarius presence in horoscope? Stuck in head full of strange thoughts? I've also found out that chiron in 1st house is dedicated to feeling disconnected with sense of self, existence.
What's your suggestions? Maybe someone of you have simmilar influences and experiences? I would be also grateful if someone could look into my future by using natal chart.
http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif.cgi?lang=e&gif=astro_2gw_01_lo_st_he.67897.27181.gif&res=100
Since childhood I feel horrible, tired and lost like I'm wasting my time, waiting all my life hopelessly for something more... something extraordinary but I cannot define it so there's no solution. I mean, people have realistic goals - being part of happy family, providing successfull career etc. but it's predictable, planned, somehow... limited??? so it won't be fully satifing. Sometimes I'm even able to cry because of anger that there's no higher meaning in my life.
I escape from daily issues by reading fantasy books, dreaming what could happen to me, having a walk and visiting deserted places to feel thrill thanks to mysterious atmosphere.
Is it typical for sick, strong air/aquarius presence in horoscope? Stuck in head full of strange thoughts? I've also found out that chiron in 1st house is dedicated to feeling disconnected with sense of self, existence.
What's your suggestions? Maybe someone of you have simmilar influences and experiences? I would be also grateful if someone could look into my future by using natal chart.
http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif.cgi?lang=e&gif=astro_2gw_01_lo_st_he.67897.27181.gif&res=100
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