Some questions:
On-the-hour birth times are often questionsable. Is it accurate, otherwise house cusps can move position, altering the circumstances of a house realm ?
Do you desire a child for itself or :
because it is what is expected of a woman, or to 'feel complete'?
To fulfil 'an ideal' of motherhood'?
For another reason; e.g. against loneliness, to fill a void, saving a marriage, satisfying 'grandparents', etc.?
There is an astrological but
non-physical point called MEAN Black Moon Lilith that has been observed to have strong associations with conditions regarding 'motherhood'. This point is placed in Virgo in the 1st house in the natal chart; Virgo is the Ascending sign (physical constitution).
MEAN BML forms a soft aspect with natal Sun (personal will) in Capricorn ….4th or 5th house situations realm according to accuracy of birth time?? Yet it is in a strenuous harsh aspect with natal Moon whose feelings have need of a material steady secure safety net, that may not be forthcoming.
Moon-MEAN BML situations have become almost a classic regarding the (non)bonding aspect within mother-child relationship …. your own and that within a (pseudo) family setting.
A harsh aspect between natal Sun amd Moon is often suggestive of a difficult relationship between the child's parents, to which MEAN BML will create its own version in the child of who is/was at fault.
Ruler of Virgo Ascendant is Mercury, placed in the 5th house realm of, amongst other things, the parent/child relationships. It falls under Aquarius, representing the spirit of independent thought. The harsh aspects to Moon and Pluto can produce a FIXED one way obsessional, possessive, emotional mindset within yourself ….. and/or any future child you will have and bring up.
What if a future child is not perfect in form through your eyes? What if the parent-child relationship asks much of you? Could you cope?
It has been observed that the non-physical point BML
DOES seem to show 'the point' of that which does not physically occur, even if it is not understood at the time. Positively speaking, BML in Virgo can have an inner talent for rectifying any mistakes one feels to have made and then 'point' towards the right direction to take in correcting them.
I attended a lecture once in which the hypothetical (or metaphysical?) viewpoint was considered whether a foetus desires to be physically born. Does it make its own choice?
Several years later I seemed to see this put to the test. My son's wife had had 2 healthy girls, yet miscarried in the early stages of 2 further pregnancies. Circumstances beyond his control occured that led to their divorce within the next year or so.
Makes you think, doesn't it?????