I really must run to that north Node in Leo in the 10 th! I keep learning that the north node is the gateway when we are stuck. Yet it's the thing we fear most. ��
I hadn't heard that about the north node before, and it seems like something I need to know... because I'm stuck in another way, and Saturn has been transiting back and forth over my north node for the better part of a year now. And opposing one of its rulers (Mars, traditional ruler of Scorpio), which is conjunct my south node.
Osamenor.
You may be very right here. One thing I am aware of is the south node conjunct part of fortune and Chiron. I've never been able to understand what it means. But I have felt like I've held myself back from shining. I feel I need to push forward and take bigger risks and be seen and heard. I've been trying some new ways within my career to expand my reach and come out of my recording studio and interface more with the world. Even though millions have heard my work on TV. No one knows who I am.
Perhaps this is the meaning of Jupiter coming to conjunct the north node in ten?
Perhaps the uranus and saturn are forcing me out of my nest home studio into my Leo node? I feel like I'm standing at a doorway of something great, and I need to walk through that door, but the foundation around the doorway is crumbling.
I think that square between your south node rulers repeated several times over is probably key here. Jupiter transiting your north node may open some doors, but since your Part of Fortune is at south node and your career seems to reflect your south/north node path, south node rulers squaring each other looks like a karmic wave breaking. You're probably being pushed into a do-over.
Saturn and Uranus co-rule Aquarius because of their common meanings: they're both about law and authority. Saturn is established authority, traditional structures, laws handed down and enforced by society. Uranus is self authority, basic social structure not dependent on external laws, internal knowledge, the kind of authority that asserts itself by rebellion against outdated or unjust laws. Martin Luther King's words reflect the combined meanings of Saturn and Uranus well: "The highest respect for the law is to break it when it's unjust."
But those two planets and their meanings can also be completely at odds. Uranus can assert its individuality and inner authority in defiance of Saturn, while Saturn can try to (and possibly succeed) quash Uranus's rebellion. When they're in square, their meanings are not in alliance. They fight and force each other to express themselves very distinctly. That can result in one or both planetary expressions being hindered, or it can result in their distinct expressions both working for you. Kind of like a couple that argue all the time. They could really be tearing each other a part, or they could be communicating that way, putting spice into their relationship, giving each other challenges to one up. If you know your Shakespeare, think Benedict and Beatrice in "Much Ado About Nothing."