Lovelylady26, thanks for the feedback. It's hard to do a "blind" chart reading, and so any information about you is helpful. You are fluent in English, so no problems there.
I couldn't get your Astrodienst chart to come up again. You might try imgur.com if you can't save it to a computer.
However, I'm connecting some dots between your horoscope and what you've shared. Your IC (cusp of your 4th house of early childhood conditioning) is ruled by Mars. This loops us back to your Mars square Uranus, suggesting a childhood that was chaotic. This can make it difficult for you to trust the universe to support you, and possibly lead to a tendency toward Looking for Love in All the Wrong Places.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FAyDmJvjxbg
I would venture to say that you are extremely intelligent. We can't always get this off a "blind" chart reading, because the horoscope gives only a potential. We have to do more work to consider whether a baby got dropped on its head, for example. I think you would enjoy a field that requires you to do some real detective work in terms of research. Developing a life philosophy would seem very beneficial for you. I hope you will be able to attend a university, even just to take a few classes.
I don't think, realistically, that we ever go back to being our old selves after we experience a really tough time of life. We know too much, we've lived through too much. But there is a new future you waiting for you to grow into it. You can get your Sagi optimism back, but it will be tempered by your life history.
Rather than wondering when life will stop hitting you on the head, you might think about how your difficult experiences have made you more knowledgeable and wise.
BTW, Chiron shows us "where it hurts," but also where, if we stay open to those hurts, we can gain in wisdom and compassion.