WorldOfMars
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World of Mars, I am so sorry for what you've been through. You didn't deserve this, and I hope you can begin to take steps, however small or large, towards healing.
Astrologer Steven Forrest once wrote, "No planet is in the sky just to hurt us."
I think this is true, as well of Chiron. Chiron shows us "where it hurts," both physically and emotionally. But Chiron also shows where, if we stay open to those hurts, we gain in maturity, compassion, and wisdom.
Pluto is the implacable bully, the evil force that we cannot overcome. But it also shows where and how we can be a stand for self-transformation. We can rise, phoenix-like, from the ashes.
Mars rules aggression, but it also rules the kind of spunk that gets us to assert ourselves. As another astrologer put it, fire can burn your house down, or it can warm you and cook your food.
The key is to find empowering interpretations of your planetary placements, and ultimately of life. According to Forrest, we can see planets as teachers or tricksters.
Generally you will feel a transit of an outer planet when it is applying at 2-3 degrees from exact, at most. When it is separating, it seems to ease off much faster. An inner planet seems to go a lot faster. Do you know your way around an ephemeris?
Has your husband ever had a psychological/psychiatric evaluation? Does he alternate rants with periods of depression?
In the US, there are United Way agencies that offer free or low-cost counseling services to people who cannot afford to pay the going rates. Catholic Family Services is one, and no--you do not have to be Catholic and they do not put religion into their counseling services. You might contact one of these agencies in your area.
Thank you Waybread. I sometimes think we all get what we deserve, in a way. There is a reason two people come together and we have been a vibrational match. The amount of growth that has happened could not have happened without these experiences. I know they are for a reason, and some have already shown themselves to me. But I think in the future, I will know more. Yes, I am feeling the Phoenix rising. Rebuilding a healthier ego after losing it completely.
I love that saying about Mars! It is my nickname.
After the outburst, and watching him split, I did think he needed a psychiatric evaluation. Certainly in the past I did as well. I don't have much trust in psychiatrists or their labels or solutions. If he does have borderline, there is no treatment other than a healthy lifestyle and habits. And it is something you kind of grow out of, which I have noticed in him because this kind of incident has not happened in well over a year now and it was to a much lesser degree and did not last as long. But he did suggest we go to counseling once money comes in and said that if we split that he was going to consult one. We are not living in the US, but I will check it out United Way when we have the funds to see if they do skype counselling. Thank you for the info.
I do not know anything about using an ephemeris. I just looked it up. I can research and learn it. Is there a resource you can suggest? Also, why do you suggest it?
BTW, the story I spilled here was pretty much the one I PM's you about. I pretty much spilled it all.