Bina
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Wow thank you for this insight! Much appreciated. Thanks for pointing out that the chart points to the MC - I did not realise this before. I need to find a way to use my interests and abilities towards a career and life path. I've thought about writing, being an author (ruler of MC in the 3rd house), and I am currently an ancient history and archaeology student - history, archaeology, genealogy, ancestry, agriculture, these are all very 4th house things, where a lot of my planets are. I would also like to learn an instrument. I have lots of interests but it's hard for me to direct them towards the MC - very hard actually with Mars/Saturn squaring the MC. I have a lot of self-doubt and change of heart as my passions change with the wind... I have also thought about becoming a counselor, training to be a therapist which is very Cancer MC.
and are in their detrimental signs making the opposition hardest! I don't feel at ease around most people my age and my peer group with this opposition and with Saturn on the Desc. I feel more comfortable around older and mature people. I do also want a partner who is much older than me.
With this aspect though, I do feel very restricted from expressing myself - frustrating for a 5th house Sun!
With Saturn opposite my Ascendant/Mars conjunction, it is hard for me to express myself in the way I would like to or the way I feel I am inside - so I do get misunderstood as Mars tends to come out, but I don't feel that is really who I am, for me it's just a persona. Because it is difficult to express, I tend to stay introverted in the 4th house. I feel what comes out is a misrepresentation and I am trying to figure out what I could do to fix this.
Saturn is also conjunct the South Node... I feel like these problems are because of past life issues because of the SN.
What would you say about Chiron in Scorpio in the 2nd squaring all of my planets in the 4th house? My Chiron is heavily afflicted...
I really appreciate your feedback, thank you!
The chart pattern in the bottom half of your chart with the 3 consecutive sextiles and the opposition is called a cradle.
http://www.lunarliving.org/astrology/grandsextile-cradle-aspects.html
Your chart is also a bowl chart, with the rim of the bowl being the Mars/Saturn opposition.
http://www.myastrologybook.com/Bowl-planetary-pattern-astrology.htm
Yes, the Mars/Saturn opposition is also conjunct the nodes, you are right, you may have experienced a lot of restrictions and difficulties in past lives due to Saturn on the SN. In this life you are trying to get away from this, moving towards your NN, and you might react strongly or get angry when others impose restrictions on you. At that time your Mars will feel the need to act and you have to assert yourself, you might have to work hard on learning this, but it is important as the NN represents what we need to learn in order to feel happy in this life. This may at first feel uncomfortable, but will get better with practise. Your Sun/Uranus conjunction in Aquarius also adds to the wish for freedom and independence, in the 5th house self-expression is vital to you.
I saw that Chiron square, it is complex...there may be some wounding in experiencing love and joy easily - perhaps to do with your family?...Did you make everyone else in your family happy, but no-one did this for you? Were there money problems or issues in your family? Your sense of values may be wounded due to your family situation or background...Watch out for the Chiron cycle aspects (squares, opposition and return) as these will trigger the natal square. Your first Chiron square may have been a trigger event, Chiron made a square to it's natal position at the same time as it passed over all the planets in your stellium. Did anything really significant happen to you when you were around 8-9 years old? Did anything happen in your family or home at that time?
The following links can help you understand the individual Chiron aspects separately:
http://astrofix.net/2012/02/06/chironneptune-aspects/
http://astrofix.net/2011/07/19/venuschiron-aspects/
http://astrofix.net/2011/09/15/jupiterchiron-aspects/
http://astrofix.net/2011/11/16/chironuranus-aspects/
To sum it up, I feel your chart is powerful with great potentials due to the stellium and the strong aspect configurations, but it will take time to work it all out. Challenging Saturn aspects usually get easier to deal with after the first Saturn return.
There are many indicators of a need for self-expression, but always other factors in the chart holding you back. You need to find some kind of balance in this and overcome many obstacles on your path. I feel that you are a strong person and will come out happy, that stellium in your chart is really quite amazing! You have no retrograde planets, so full steam ahead in this life!
Take care,
Bina
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