The real me, is super emotional, sensitive, deep, understanding and very spiritual...
But I hide that part of myself. And I don't know why. Almost like instinctively. And put on this act of like bubbly, superficial, crazy, etc.
Like if you met me you would NEVER know how deep, introspective and spiritual I am. But I can't help it. My "acting" part just like comes up. It's not even that I try to be someone else it just "comes up," almost like I'm guarding a part of myself, the real me and I don't know why I do it.
I know this sounds complex and crazy but I'd love some insight on it.
I totally get where you're coming from and have a similar thing with myself in public. Deep down I'm rather shy and serious but in public with strangers I'm really approachable and friendly...almost more so than with people I know very well which is bizarre lol, maybe this is the same for you too?
It's almost like when we're out in the world it's like our stage of being in the now and unique experiences. Maybe my ascendant opposition to sun,Mercury,mars,Saturn adds to some kind of put-on front when around others but one of the major things of this is only you knowing your real self and it's rare for other people to completely understand and connect with you.
For some reason your chart isn't opening up on my device so I can't see if you have ascendant opposition or not etc....but a lot of the time your rising sign with your core sun personality etc can add fuel to this. But as much as it's a hinderence or wierd thing for you it's also a blessing in disguise really...many people struggle with being open and confident around others and even though I feel and think this way about myself I'm actually the opposite most the time and seem to always experience really spiritual and uplifting moments with other random people that bring strangers together in the moment despite not knowing eachother at all, but I suppose a lot of that is merely how I perceive it and am so dreamy and wishy-washy aha.
It's awesome that you guys have brought up the topic of appearance....as a Virgo rising I believe that I have the 'small Virgo nose' and small meticulous lips but definitely have got the piscean eyes and mind which the chart definitely justifies lol...I'm going to attach a pic of myself with this, not too bothered of privacy here really...feel free to show yourselves too....would be cool to see what other people think of my appearance...be honest and say what you think of me astrologically or anything really......will attach chart too.
Sorry if this seems like I'm hijacking the thread.....if it's frowned upon to direct discussions away from the person onto yourself then please let me know....don't want to cause any offense or come across selfish etc...thanks guys. Peace and Love Fellow Starlovers
P.S I don't want to come across vain with all the photos (I'm not exactly Johnny Depp lol) but I feel if we're discussing appearance it's good to have a variety of photos to show different angles or whatever....hopefully this can start up lots of cool discussions on astrological appearance because tbh that's one area in which I'm not so knowledgable...would be awesome to learn more about what gives me my looks astrologically speaking as well as you guys too.