Hi Ikarishin12,
You wrote " I wanted to die.", and this can be the negative side from the conjunction of Saturn and Lilith in your house of hope (11th). Please, work on this constellation and get it in the positiv way, that is, for me, that you could be the guide, in a future, for wisdom or spiritual aims. Believe that once dead you cannot be helpful for anyone - so that gives no sens. It has nothing to do with being not afraid but with responsibilities that you ought to others and especially to your family.
But I prefer your Lilith in the 10th, and this means for me that you dispose of a great ability of analytical thinking. Therefore, if you want to work in a medical domain, you can become naturally an analyst. Or, regarding the stellium in your 6th, you can use your abilities to another section of medical domains like, for example, the nutrition sectors.
Wen you said " I fear making small mistakes, killing a patient" I immediately thought at your position of Pluton, the Lord of Scorpio who is in his own domicile (sign) and in his house (8th) squarring Jupiter and the Sun in the house of children. Were there a death of a child in your environment?
But this position of Pluton-Jupiter-Sun can signifie, that you, the Sun, being in the house of romance, that your destiny is to be a lover with deep and intensive feelings (Pluton) accompanied with struggles of obsessed guiltiness - perhaps?
And this other remark: "My maternal aunt helped pay for my college tuition fee and my mother's siblings in general always help us financially" is shown by your Moon in the third house and beeing the Lord of your 4th.
You are young and in the beginning of your life, therefore what you call your nervosity could turn into a strong leader position as you have Uranus on your MC. Uranus is here like a second Sun! And all in all with your 10th house in Capricorn you cannot do other things than reaching your aim and carry out your life plan. But Capri demand operating slowly but surely.
For me you have a very good natal chart. And even with the POF in the 2nd house, it seems to me, that you'll come out of poverty.
Here, for you, I did just a small insight on your chart, but there are much more to explain and so it isn't a real interpretation, only some directions of my point of view.