i have never been in a normal relationship. i always been in love with someone who is unavailable or doesn`t want anything serious with me. i feel safe that way. when there comes a good guy who really likes me and wants to be with
me i feel almost panic..i want to run awaysomeone actually wanting to be serious with me..i cant deal with that..
i can live a relationship from distance..more like in my imagination..
now i have actually met a nice guy,and i actually like him.very much.
BUT when he calls me and tells me let`s meet and go to dinner and
spend some time together..i find myself making excuses for having something
else urgent that i need to do..
i really want to go..i want to spend time with him..but i just cant..that would be REAL.for me who feels familiar and safe with affairs that are long distance or some way in my imagination world.
i am asking myself why i am doing this...i`m sad because if i cant change myself..i will be alone for the rest of my life..
me i feel almost panic..i want to run awaysomeone actually wanting to be serious with me..i cant deal with that..
i can live a relationship from distance..more like in my imagination..
now i have actually met a nice guy,and i actually like him.very much.
BUT when he calls me and tells me let`s meet and go to dinner and
spend some time together..i find myself making excuses for having something
else urgent that i need to do..
i really want to go..i want to spend time with him..but i just cant..that would be REAL.for me who feels familiar and safe with affairs that are long distance or some way in my imagination world.
i am asking myself why i am doing this...i`m sad because if i cant change myself..i will be alone for the rest of my life..