Manic_Monday said:
My Pluto is very difficult:
Pluto in Scorpio, house 10
Pluto conjunct Moon
Pluto square Venus
Pluto sextile Saturn
Pluto sextile Neptune
I'll write more later. Pluto is such an interesting subject
My Pluto is in house 10. I'll have to learn to accept authority. I'll have to learn about power, and how to handle it. I need to be in charge, to be needed. I can't stand other people telling me what to do. I need to find out my own way. Lots of interpretions say I will be a revolutionist. I don't know. Maybe I will be some day
I'm still in the process of figuring out what I want in life, what my career and study will be. I'm tending towards psychology now. Maybe I will be a psychologist with very revolutionary ideas
I have strange ideas, at least. I also have Uranus in H1. I'm just a strange person I guess
I used to be way to secretive. I used to shut up (literally) if someone asked me about my favorite music. Now I don't hestitate to tell them Red Hot Chili Peppers are the best
(Come on, aren't they?
By the way *little joke, hehe*, is it possible to tell a person's taste in music from a chart?) I think this is something that goes with Pluto in 10 as well: having difficulties to express your opinions. Being to secretive about them, being afraid to be laughed at, being afraid not to be taken seriously. I have this fear. Are there more people here with Pluto in 10 who share my fears? I also fear responsibility. A fault while I'm in charge, imagine
I'm scared something really bad happens and that it's my fault.
Pluto conjunct Moon. I'm always being too much of a mother. I'm too protective and always tell everyone what to do and how to do. Friends often call my mummy.
I often hear Pluto conjunct Moon has to do with a problem with the mother. I have no real problems with my mother. Okay, she pushes me too much, wants me to be perfect. She always wanted me to look more like her (I used to be shy, she's very outgoing), now she wants me to look less like her
My father's a Cancer, so the Moon could symbolise him. I don't have real arguments with my father. But eh, there is one thing we can't discuss. Astrology and religion. My father thinks it's all rubbish. He doesn't believe in anything. He thinks that I'll grow over it.
But well, I can't blame him, he's a scientist
. I don't discuss religion or astrology with him anymore...
I know exactly how others have to solve their problems, but I can't solve my own. I need to be the best. I'm too obsessed with everything. I worry too much. I simply cannot 'let it be'. I remember everything. You bet I will remember if someone hurt me. I can't cry with someone else around. I can't show my feelings. This is a theme in my chart. Virgo Sun, Scorpio Moon, Pluto's aspects, Saturn in H1, Sag rising (always pretending to be happy)...
Pluto square Venus. I have intense emotions, and it's hard for me to control myself
. I must admit I often catch myself manipulating other. I know I have to say just that to make that person change his mind. I need someone who loves me, I need arms around me, but I'm too afraid to let people come close to me. Not only emotionally, but also physically. Venus is in H8, that makes things worse
I can be very demanding, yes. I'm easily hurt, but I simply can't show it. I get the feeling I have to show I'm a strong person. I always pretend to be strong, pretend not to care. But I do care. I overreact a lot, but afterwards I always think: 'Ah well, maybe I shouldn't have reacted that way.' And I walk around with a negative feeling for the next couple of days.
Venus square Pluto At a very deep level your whole idea of what love is and what love is not, is having to go through a major process of transformation. Your love nature as described here, has taken on the task of bringing into light the most fearsome, ugly and taboo-ridden aspects of human nature - in yourself and others. This is challenging indeed, and it is therefore not surprising that your love life is cratered with crisis of no mean magnitude. Can you still love in the face of death; be it the death of a cherished ideal, a social norm, or love or a loved one?
Shining Ray wrote this. I don't have that much experience with love - hey, I'm just a sixteen year old! I've got plenty of time left. I don't know wether I would be able to love in the face of death. I don't know. I don't know if I'm that strong.
I think everyone has to learn what love is and what love is not through experience, through transformation. I think there are some things everyone has to learn to deal with. No matter what aspects you have in your chart... Everyone of us has to learn to be independent. We all have to learn to let go. We all have to learn to love, yes. For some people, it's easier to do so.
Pluto sextile Saturn. This aspect lasted long. Not so long as the Pluto - Neptune sextile lasted (or is that still lasting?), but however.
'You can act as a 'magician' transmitting occult energies and influence through established structures.'
This is what the astrologyweekly site says about this aspect. I feel like a magician. I'm drawn to the occult. I'm obsessed with the occult. I've been a wiccan for some time, but it wasn't my thing. I couldn't accept an authority above, I couldn't accept the existence of a Goddess/God. (Hey, there is Pluto again
) Picture the situation. I'm doing a Tarot spread. (I love Tarot. I'm still not good at doing readings for myself, I can't interprete objectively. But I love doing readings for others.) Someone else is watching, fascinating by what I'm doing and saying. I love that. I feel like a real magician when people are fascinated by what I'm doing.