3 years have passed, heidy26. Time should start healing now. I still cry, sometimes a lot, sometimes less but I do cry, still. Its funny! Pain demands to be felt. Love gave me pain, love should bring happiness now.
I haven't talked to him since a month now. I hope I am doing right now?
You are right, what goes around, comes back around
Thank you for your kind words. Much needed.
Yup, I am trying everything to let him go. Lat night all drunk, I just wanted to talk him but I did not call or message him once even when my friends forced me a lot to do so. I did talk about him a lot, crying and abusing him, laughing how stupid he is that he is letting go of a woman who can move mountains for him but all he want is to date bimbos. I deleted his contact in mid November and I just wanted to stick with my decision that I will not initiate any conversation with him again, what so ever. I think its a small victory for me.
On Christmas, he sent me a Christmas in NYC picture to which I did not reply.
Then yesterday he again texted me that it is extremely weird to talk to me now. I haven't said anything yet. Its extremely heart breaking to see something ending so brutally which was so beautiful once upon a time.
I told you before, he reappears all the time, again and again.
On Christmas, he sent me a Christmas in NYC picture to which I did not reply.
Then yesterday he again texted me that it is extremely weird to talk to me now. I haven't said anything yet. Its extremely heart breaking to see something ending so brutally which was so beautiful once upon a time.
I told you before, he reappears all the time, again and again.
I am pathetically heart broken. Please help me. I am unable to focus on anything. I am unable to come back to my senses. Yesterday I blocked him from everywhere, because whenever I see his contact, it initializes my hands to talk to him which is dangerous to break my pledge. Why am I behaving so stupid that I am letting this situation dominate me No other man wants to get closer to me because of this situation. I have started hating men in a sense that I might not let me making a connection with them emotionally. I don't want to get married forcefully. I am not doing good.
I am pathetically heart broken. Please help me. I am unable to focus on anything. I am unable to come back to my senses. Yesterday I blocked him from everywhere, because whenever I see his contact, it initializes my hands to talk to him which is dangerous to break my pledge. Why am I behaving so stupid that I am letting this situation dominate me No other man wants to get closer to me because of this situation. I have started hating men in a sense that I might not let me making a connection with them emotionally. I don't want to get married forcefully. I am not doing good.