Firstly i need to get out of this enviroment,i don't want it,i don't like it,i think i'm emotionally weak and sometimes scr it up.Guitar exercice is a priority,wanted to do it from kid,but again didn't have the proper time again.Dissapointemnt in every area,stuck for long time.
When this situation will stop,why my chart dont give me answer to this.
Αlmost 1 year later,a big gap to wait to solve some issues. Should i consider a therapy visiting a psychologist?
Fear/insecurity is the only obstacle.
No,i've never tried this before,talk to a girl i may like,i harshly criticize myself cause i don't sympathize myself as it is,but same time no courage or confidence to help my self with major changes,fearing will fail and will dissapointed.I'm not learning to be strong by my self,i feel too weak as a person,emotionally,mentally.
I will get a look to this book,even if i don't understand much about astrology this period.
I can make a list of things and interests,lessons about learning electirc guitar,even in this age,as hobby in house for ex,follow nutrition and gym programs,taking road trips with bike,learning meditation could help,trying life coaching,or some kind of therapy for self confidence boost,make different music play list of music i prefer and enjoy to listen often.
BUT,my main obstacle here this moment,is that my current job/job enviroment,small salary and lack of time,doesn't give me the opportunity to get that kind of list and follow it so to achieve some of them.I need some space and free time i don't have.
So,i'm stuck and trapped as i cannot take from nowhere plesure,plus i cannot express my self and have tendencies of hiding,be introvert and too shy,i fear that if will i open to others some things i am ashamed for they will revealed and it could be a shock for them and a bad moment for me too.
My moon is injured,malefics are there too,11th house of friendships not promising,i dunno what else to say.
I already failed to an exam some days back,exactly cause there was no time for preparation and study,cause of 6/7 days of work,only some mornings free and that's all.My family cannot support me financially for long time,so i'm trapped to continue,and most jobs i searched for were far away from where i live,no car or motorbike i have to use for daily purpose.
The house of friendships and relationship don't seem to be promising.
You have many of the same placements I have in some of the same houses and the majority of my planets are concentrated on the northern part of my chart and I'm a Virgo rising.View attachment 85824
Last 6 months i've tried harder to change things for me,but i couldn't make it to get out of deadlock i'm in.I want to quit my job,i want to hide from everyone,i feel uncomfortable,weak,insecure,i cannot look people into eyes for long time.
I need more time for my self,even to do simple daily things,boredom kills me,i start anything and after awhile i want to retire or quit as no plessure i take from any king of activity i try.