You really think Chicago, why?
I'd miss the ocean! That's a fairly serious reason.
Daydreaming isn't bad!
But if I go to Chicago, I'll feel so landlocked. I need to be able to "slip away" sometimes. I hated who I was when I was out in the midwest, so USED.
Not ok with that, and I had so many psychological issues I had to address and no time to address them, I had to be in school. There was an excellent therapist there, but everything was so tight-lipped and I had to hide everything. I turned myself inside out and into a little box when I was there. I became just an object... out there. I hated who I was.
I was in a bad relationship, which was the worst point and part of all of it.
The friend in LA isn't a GREAT friend, but she got me, and that's what matters. She always took me for who I was, at face value. She could see things in me no one could ever see, and she was real with me, while also being supportive. She is a Cancer with a Gemini Moon and Scorpio Rising, Virgo MC. Sun right on top of Mars, with Sun Moon Mercury all in the 8th house.
But it's uneasy support, that's for sure, kind of like the earthquakes out in LA. But I thought I needed to be places that challenge me, Ohio for school challenged me by nearly destroying me. I had to return to New York to collapse and rebuild myself.
LA, at least LA is some place I've never been. Would love Berkeley area even better. Just somewhere nice by the ocean, that's all. And then there is so much going on in terms of art. There was in the midwest but again, who I was out there, what became of me, strong Neptune I guess plus Pluto, I just couldn't enjoy anything. The only time I felt of moment of peace for strength to dedicate to my senior thesis, was at a stop off on a trip home from Atlanta GA. I found a book at the aiport I literally clung to just to make it through my senior thesis and my professor, who I completely intimidated and completely intimidated me.
But, hey, I learned a lot about myself out there, I experienced a lot of pain and trauma and I still graduated, barely. I wish I could back to college, and I feel like if I could to Chicago, it will be like I haven't done anything new, I'm just revisiting my past, when I want to dream and build.
And with Pisces on the 3rd in the LA chart, my natal Jupiter will fall there, overlaid with the second house from my natal chart. Money from daydreaming? SO MUCH better than using my body, Mars in the 3rd in the relocation = the Mars in first from my natal chart. UGH structure, discipline, limitations to my body? NO THANK-YOU!
Wow ok, so yeah, I think I prefer LA. Holy smokes yes. BASED ON THIS TRUE STORY, how could I not?! Wow sorry to yell!