Hello,
3 years ago i posted here for the first time. As many of you who found their way to astrology in hard times, i also sought some kind of explanation here.
Basically 3 years ago my world was shattered to the point where i could not function properly any more. Nothing improved for those years until now except it only became worse.
I have been suffering from depression but which is worse - obsession. Obsession with the past that i just can`t let go of. I tried, oh, God, i have tried. My head feels like a smashed ball. All those years i was unable to do anything more than think. I just feel paralysed to act on anything.
And here i am - again looking into my chart to see if there would be something that i could find meaning in, that would make me keep going because honestly right now i feel i really do not want /want, not can/ to live my life anymore. It is really not the depression any more - i just feel indifferent to everything, unwilling to change anything because i do not believe things can ever be different and unable in some days even to get up from bed.
I would be thankful if you can take a loot at my chart.
I was blaming saturn in 12th for most of that but i see he has made his way into the 1st house already. Funny but for 3 years now NOTHING new, different or whatever happened to me. No matter how planets move and what connections they make, my life is just stuck at one point.
3 years ago i posted here for the first time. As many of you who found their way to astrology in hard times, i also sought some kind of explanation here.
Basically 3 years ago my world was shattered to the point where i could not function properly any more. Nothing improved for those years until now except it only became worse.
I have been suffering from depression but which is worse - obsession. Obsession with the past that i just can`t let go of. I tried, oh, God, i have tried. My head feels like a smashed ball. All those years i was unable to do anything more than think. I just feel paralysed to act on anything.
And here i am - again looking into my chart to see if there would be something that i could find meaning in, that would make me keep going because honestly right now i feel i really do not want /want, not can/ to live my life anymore. It is really not the depression any more - i just feel indifferent to everything, unwilling to change anything because i do not believe things can ever be different and unable in some days even to get up from bed.
I would be thankful if you can take a loot at my chart.
I was blaming saturn in 12th for most of that but i see he has made his way into the 1st house already. Funny but for 3 years now NOTHING new, different or whatever happened to me. No matter how planets move and what connections they make, my life is just stuck at one point.
