Hey! Im a 22 yo woman who has a 4years relationship and a cheater. I can understand being a cheater with scorpio venus but also my school life is pretty bad. even tho, I think, my chart says other wise. Can u tell me what my chart says about my life am i gonna be miserable because of bad karma and also poor? Thank you
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Dear Damned,
First of all, no one is “damned”. Even if you are creating some bad karma, you can find redemption in changing yourself and doing what feels good instead of what feels bad. Most likely, you are doing something you think is wrong, cheating – for a reason. What is that reason? If your answer is “I don’t know” then you need to think about it a while. Do you dislike your partners down deep? Do you not respect them? Do you want to hurt them first so that you won’t be hurt? These things may not be true for you. I’m just trying to get you to think deeper. When you understand WHY you cheat, then you will have control over the choice not to do it.
Your South Node of the Moon – your wound – is in Pisces in the 2nd house. That means you have some confusion over your self-concept – who you think you are. You may not feel of value. Maybe that’s why you cheat? You don’t value yourself so you think they’re losers if they value you. You don’t believe them. That’s a possibility.
You have Virgo planets in the 8th house – Sun, Mercury and North Node. You could have obsessive energy with Virgo in the 8th. It’s an intercepted sign too, so you could feel really STUCK.
Leo is on the 8th house cusp, and your way out is through Leo. The other way out is through your grand trine – your Virgo Sun is trine the Neptune in Capricorn-Uranus in Aquarius conjunction in the 1st house and trine your Moon in Gemini in the 5th – Leo’s house. Leo’s natural house is the 5th where you Moon is. So, belief in yourself – in your own creative self-expression – in your own perception of truth – in play and fun and being true to yourself. Leo's 5th house also rules love affairs.
If you’re going to be obsessive, be obsessive about finding your own true self-worth. The 1st house is Aries natural house – the house of independent self. Uranus in Aquarius there (with Jupiter) says you are learning to be more independent and discovering your own unique individuality. You are special. There is no one on this planet who is like you. Only you can offer the world what you have to give. It’s up to you to discover what it is you want to be and give. Only you can do that.
Although the grand trine is a way out, I can also see it being a stuck place too. You get obsessed with your Virgo sun analyzing your relationship and then you go to the trine – have an affair – and then you feel relieved of the obsessing and you learn something about yourself. So you feel good in one way but bad in another.
Saturn is the ruler of your ASC and your chart with Capricorn rising. Saturn is in Aries – Ms. Independent – Ms. I’ve got to be me. In the 3rd house, you are exploring Aries qualities – you might be passionate about communicating your many great ideas. You might like teaching or any type of communications careers. You’re probably a hard worker.
Pluto in Sag - You need to explore you beliefs – what you think is true philosophically as well as what you believe is true about yourself and even other people. There’s a problem with some of your conclusions.
Okay. Yes, this chart feels “stuck”. I can see how you feel damned. Because you try one thing and it doesn’t work and you try another thing and it doesn’t work or sends you back to the first problem. So you feel stuck.
To me, the best way forward is your chart ruler. Saturn in Aries in the 3rd house. It’s not involved in the Virgo-Pisces interception or the trine. It’s not in those stuck places. Aries is independent. It can be very intuitive. 3rd house could give you excellent intuitive perceptions. Seek the truth of who you are through Saturn. Saturn is about finding your internal voice, your integrity, knowing yourself from the inside out. It is bigger and more powerful than Venus and Mars in Scorpio. How do you want to use that Scorpio energy? Yes. You can use it for sexual affairs. But, you can also use it to go within yourself seeking and investigating your inner authority. The tenth house is your reputation, your social standing, your career. You can be a good investigator with that Scorpio – you can use it for discovery – self-discovery or inventing things or understanding things most people don’t.You can use it to be a cheater. But I don't think you want that to be your reputation.
Your Gemini Moon is in the 5th house of love affairs. So you have that too. But, you could use that for creative projects instead.
Anyway, these are some ideas for you to play with. For certain though, you aren’t damned. You are very young and as you grow in age, you will understand yourself better. I didn’t have a clue at your age and I think most people don’t through their 20s. All most of us know at that time is that life isn’t the way we’d like it to be.
Pisces intercepted in the 2nd house of Money isn't good for money. But that doesn't mean you can't make money. Aquarius is on the 2nd house cusp. I think as you take more control over your life, you will find more opportunities to make money. Aquarius rules technology so you might find a place in that field - or some humanitarian organization - Moon in Gemini also might suggest that you'd do well in technology, writing, teaching. If you take modern ruler of Scorpio 10th house of career - that is in Aquarius's natural house - again, technology, humanitarian organizations, writing teaching (Sagittairus) - are some ideas.