Ukpoohbear
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Why are you so mercurial?
Why are you a fascinating mix of darkness and friendliness? Dark Pluto and nice Jupiter.
Why are you so mercurial?
Why are you a fascinating mix of darkness and friendliness? Dark Pluto and nice Jupiter.
I can definetely understand it in terms of not wanting negativity or disapproval to cloud your mind. I wish you the best of luck.
You know, your outburst mirrored an outburst that happened in real life too, and the woman had similar placements as you. At the end, she was tired and looked super angry, but I was calm and ready to eat (I was hungry). She got progressively more furious the more she realise I was unaffected. It was a similar case of misattribution and (ironically) scapegoating.
An interesting case of synchronicity. I wonder if it would have even happened if you didn't introduce that energy - I met it first in you.
Thanks, but it's not that. Nothing anyone says can stop me from going down a path once I've decided that that is what I want to do.
The latter. I've known for a long time that I'm attracted to passionate, difficult women.
I know it wasnt that, not entirely sure what it was though. Sounds adventurous whatever it is, lets hope everything goes ok. I criticize you for not having enough life experience, only cos youre so ahead of your time in other ways...there is no doubting your intelligence...but it wont take long for the life experience to come, especially with this fire.
One of my philosophies is that I should go through and actively seek out trials of fire in my life, and if I'm not able to come out the other side, then I wasn't as capable as I thought I was and I should face the truth, no matter how ugly/pretty it is.
So I'm fine with dying young.
I believe in myself, but it's still tough. I don't know if I'm an addict... The only thing that keeps me from calling myself an addict is my issue with not wanting to make a big deal out of things. It's quite possible I am a soft addict tho. I was so grateful that in the wake of a string of painkiller abuse and also trying to kill myself via painkillers, the painkillers belonging to my grandma were locked up. My family still has no idea I have substance abuse issues and I don't know how I've been so good at hiding it. When I had issues with alcohol, they knew of that bc there's less taboo even tho it's a hard drugI'm glad you believe in yourself enough to not want to go down that path and understand the seriousness behind it. I totally get wanting to make jokes about it too and its probably the best thing you could do, since addicts tend to lie and want to keep up the facade and game, so that shows you arent one and dont want to be.
I had a friend who was so good at that and she held it together for so long, still looking semi decent, although the cracks eventually started to show. If I ever took it, I wouldnt be able to get back out of it cos I'm always externalizing.
I probably shouldnt say this but im gonna, im not happy with your uncle for leaving it around for you to fins, or for your parents for allowing you the chance to come across it. Whos protecting you like you so much want to protect your little sister?
Well hello thereThe latter. I've known for a long time that I'm attracted to passionate, difficult women.
One of my philosophies is that I should go through and actively seek out trials of fire in my life, and if I'm not able to come out the other side, then I wasn't as capable as I thought I was and I should face the truth, no matter how ugly/pretty it is.
So I'm fine with dying young.
Where do you find your courage? I want to be able to do that, but I don't know where to begin cuz the thought itself is already uncomfortable.