Thank you for your reply.
Like atmaKarka? So Saturn points to the major mission/driving force in my life?
I certainly have most of my difficulties be about Saturn and learning how to work hard and take responsibility. A lot of it is about...Saying no to love, pleasure and fun...Which I'm struggling with.
Is the way Saturn placed point out how I can better learn this lesson? Is it really about never having fun?
RishiRahul= Yes and no. There are other variables involved.
Like being more grounded to the real world & handling your nervous tension not letting you progress trying to find emotional harmony.
Wow! That is a VERY long time. If this is the path I am not then maybe I should reconsider trying so hard to settle and find love NOW...I should probably relax a bit. I hope you don't mean being alone until that time...
Would marriage and family life suite my personality in your opinion?
I never thought about "being proud of my partner" as a need. But of course! I realize how important it is to respect my partner!
What type of personality/occupation would be a good partner?
Like you said...I'm not a very easy person in terms of having emotional ups and downs and needing love to be a spiritual experience/union of souls.
I am worried about Mars. at least I get the issue but that makes me question and fear relationships. No one wants a war in the area of love believe me...
I'm not very social, as I'm introverted. I can be a loner. If not asking too much, Curious what you mean by attracting responsibility.
RishiRahul= Which will enable you to drift away from the real world. With practise you will become social. I see this have a start between mid 2019 & mid 2020.
Yes..2012 has been very hard- a lot of broken dreams and having to face reality.
I also stopped trusting at around that year due to bad experiences.
I'n not all bad!
but the romantic department has been difficult. So it is true I have been searching for answers.