I don’t have your birth details so this is all I have eyeballing it. You’re going through some rough ****.
1) Transit Uranus through the 8th house has been at 28 Aries, squaring your Sun for a while now.
2) Transit Pluto and Saturn are both touching your Mercury-Neptune/Uranus opposition. Transit Saturn just passed your Vertex now, and Transit Pluto on your Neptune / Uranus within 2 degrees. Both are transiting the 5th, hitting the 11th.
3) Transit Neptune is opposing your Moon/Mars configuration. Neptune is transiting the 7th, it passed your DC a short while ago.
Are you thinking about doing this because of romance issues?
Transit Saturn/Pluto in 5th is tough. It literally drains the life out of you in terms of Joy and optimism. Opposing your retrograde Mercury, no wonder you are depressed.
Lykan, what you need to do during this time and this entire transit is to go help other people. Put that Moon and Mars in Virgo into good use. Combining your Virgo tendencies with your uber-sharp Pluto in 3rd abilities. Saturn is activating that Mars anyways. This looks to me to be the best use of this time.
If you are looking for relationships/love/romance, the transits aren't good. There's going to be disappointment and disillusionment here.
The best way to go is to be of service and go help others.
You have some superb capabilities on that front, and can be extremely useful to the world around you.
Forgot to add that blogging/writing and as CT suggested, doing 'stream of consciousness' style posts, will also help you a great deal. It won't matter if its here or on your personal blog. The important thing is a way to channel and release all that energy, get all those emotions out. You are going to want to publicize them or somehow express it outwardly. Since the resolution planets and placements are on your AC, and in your third.
How is your blog going?
I knew of someone who once went through a very dark, mind altering time who also started a blog. I remember it was up to one year. And she couldn't stop writing, she did it obsessively as a way to channel her energies.
Her blog now has 7 million hits, and she helps many others around the world as a private consultant.