In my chart a lot of the placements predict my personality. Or so i thought.
I suffered what would be called developmental trauma likely due to having suffered a premature induced birth which i took 12 hours to be born and then suffering a dangerously high fever which left me hospitalized in NICU for a week. This was the first 2 weeks of my life.
Now as i learn more about developmental trauma i found that what i thought was my personality a lot of it are just the psychological symptoms of trauma. For example certain placements in my chart like saturn in the 3rd would indicate introversion and excessive introversion especially when one wants to be otherwise can be a symptom of developmental trauma. Or i have saturn square my ascendant a placement that can indicate low self esteem. But low self esteem is another mental symptom of developmental trauma. I have my mars in pisces and a lot of the negatives of that placement would be considered mental symptoms of developmental trauma.
I know that had i not suffered developmental trauma and got to have normal psychological development i likely would be more outgoing and have high self esteem. So i dont consider trauma symptoms to be my true personality.
So when i look at my chart how can i decipher what its telling me about my true personality and the parts that have been infected by trauma?
I cant post my chart from this phone but any insight would be helpful.
I suffered what would be called developmental trauma likely due to having suffered a premature induced birth which i took 12 hours to be born and then suffering a dangerously high fever which left me hospitalized in NICU for a week. This was the first 2 weeks of my life.
Now as i learn more about developmental trauma i found that what i thought was my personality a lot of it are just the psychological symptoms of trauma. For example certain placements in my chart like saturn in the 3rd would indicate introversion and excessive introversion especially when one wants to be otherwise can be a symptom of developmental trauma. Or i have saturn square my ascendant a placement that can indicate low self esteem. But low self esteem is another mental symptom of developmental trauma. I have my mars in pisces and a lot of the negatives of that placement would be considered mental symptoms of developmental trauma.
I know that had i not suffered developmental trauma and got to have normal psychological development i likely would be more outgoing and have high self esteem. So i dont consider trauma symptoms to be my true personality.
So when i look at my chart how can i decipher what its telling me about my true personality and the parts that have been infected by trauma?
I cant post my chart from this phone but any insight would be helpful.