Hi ASL,
How do you feel about posting a chart? I've noticed that when people post a chart a lot of excellently minded astro-people will spontaneously start pointing out really insightful, helpful things ot you about your life.
I was researching throughout the internet for individuals that have experienced a Pluto transit square to natal Sun and the Uranus transit conjunction Sun and trine to Mars/Ascending.
I'm very close to this. I've a Sun/Venus/Moon conjuction in Aries, with the Sun on 13 degrees and some minutes --- which means that Uranus has been running up and down over a few of my planets for a while, and Pluto has been squaring it. My mars is not ascending and isn't trining Uranus in the sky, but it is sextile to it (5 degrees Aquarius).
How has it been affecting me? I share your sense of being overwhelmed. I feel for you and with you! When I found out about this event in the sky and the coming cardinal cross it led me to start posting on this site. But, some way now into my awareness of it, I have some real hope to offer.
Exactly how it's been affecting me is too personal to post about. But let me say this: All the important things that make up my life began to shatter at their core in 2013. But once I could deny it no longer and was forced to face the changes, I have re-focused, put great work into thinking about these changes and discovered that what's emerging are new, better possibilities. The things in my life that started cracking I haven't lost. They've been transforming - reshaping. (I realize this is all in the abstract, but again... too personal for details.) Yes, I've been hit by lightning bolts - but instead of laying down and dying I've been following the changes, to see what I can make of them. And what I'm finding is that - not unlike how people talk about Saturn Returns - the vine is being pruned. The things that don't really fit my life are being ripped away and I'm being forced to find more authentic ways of being myself.
Now, to be honest and clear, what I'm talking about here is ongoing. I haven't pulled my self out of the hole. It's been hard slogging and I expect it to be for a few years. Right now I feel like the day-to-day of my life is a cage I just want to shatter and escape from. But I'm trying to be smart about it and work methodically to build something better out of this moment rather than tear everything to the ground and wind up with nothing. I see now that 2013 was like a giant, universal cattle prod zapping me to move in a 90 degree angle from the direction my life was heading in, with the hope that whatever I build in this new direction will ultimately amount to a much better use of my life's energy.
And again, I haven't really
lost anything. Things have been
transforming...
if this is anything like the kind of overwhelm you're feeling, I hope this post can offer you some assurance. I realize these are massive energies, and I realize it takes a lot of work, but maybe the only thing to do is ride that lightning... because we're not going to beat it or deny it...