Janus
Well-known member
I have a question about myself. I'm hoping someone here might be able to look at my birth chart and possibly give me an answer of some kind, or even give me some advice that sends me in the right direction.
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For as long as I can remember, I have always felt like an outsider. Different to others in some way. A loner. A misfit. Someone who doesn't belong. I remember being young and sometimes having this strange, vague, yet somehow very real and heavy feeling that I didn't quite belong somehow. This feeling would occur again and again throughout my life. I am 26 years old now, and I still get this feeling. In face, I can say that the older I get the more often that this feeling occurs, and the worse it feels. It's like having a monkey on my back who slaps me on the back of the head every time I'm about to feel normal or content.
I wish I could give you some more detail on how I feel, but...I find it hard to describe properly. I don't even understand it completely myself. It's strange. Honestly, not only am I bit of a mystery to other people, I'm also a mystery to myself a lot of the time. I have friends, only a few though, and I don't really get too close. I frequently feel the 'need' to be alone for periods of time, especially if I've been hanging around with a group of people for an extended period. I don't always enjoy being alone, sometimes I even wish I could enjoy NOT being alone more, but I definitely need to disconnect myself from others on a regular basis. Wherever I may be, I try to find a spot that's quiet, and where I'm not likely to be disturbed.
As I said before, the older I get the stronger these feelings get. I often feel like I don't belong anywhere in life. For this reason I avoid getting too close to people, whether it be socially or in a job sense, as I don't want people to get too attached to me, lest I feel the need to leave them.
What I want to ask you folk is this: is there a reason or reasons why this is happening? I would like it if someone could have a glimpse at my chart and see if anything there sheds some light on my predicament. I would also be interested to know if there are any particular planetary placements, aspects, etc. that appear often in people who are 'Outsiders', 'Misfits', 'Loners' or are just somehow not like the rest of the human race in some way.
Thank you for your time. I'm sorry if my description of my feelings sounds a bit vague, but I do find it hard to describe my feelings. Also if you need more information from me, feel free to ask.
Janus
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For as long as I can remember, I have always felt like an outsider. Different to others in some way. A loner. A misfit. Someone who doesn't belong. I remember being young and sometimes having this strange, vague, yet somehow very real and heavy feeling that I didn't quite belong somehow. This feeling would occur again and again throughout my life. I am 26 years old now, and I still get this feeling. In face, I can say that the older I get the more often that this feeling occurs, and the worse it feels. It's like having a monkey on my back who slaps me on the back of the head every time I'm about to feel normal or content.
I wish I could give you some more detail on how I feel, but...I find it hard to describe properly. I don't even understand it completely myself. It's strange. Honestly, not only am I bit of a mystery to other people, I'm also a mystery to myself a lot of the time. I have friends, only a few though, and I don't really get too close. I frequently feel the 'need' to be alone for periods of time, especially if I've been hanging around with a group of people for an extended period. I don't always enjoy being alone, sometimes I even wish I could enjoy NOT being alone more, but I definitely need to disconnect myself from others on a regular basis. Wherever I may be, I try to find a spot that's quiet, and where I'm not likely to be disturbed.
As I said before, the older I get the stronger these feelings get. I often feel like I don't belong anywhere in life. For this reason I avoid getting too close to people, whether it be socially or in a job sense, as I don't want people to get too attached to me, lest I feel the need to leave them.
What I want to ask you folk is this: is there a reason or reasons why this is happening? I would like it if someone could have a glimpse at my chart and see if anything there sheds some light on my predicament. I would also be interested to know if there are any particular planetary placements, aspects, etc. that appear often in people who are 'Outsiders', 'Misfits', 'Loners' or are just somehow not like the rest of the human race in some way.
Thank you for your time. I'm sorry if my description of my feelings sounds a bit vague, but I do find it hard to describe my feelings. Also if you need more information from me, feel free to ask.
Janus