well, the south node is your talent, it's what you brought with you when you came to be in this existence, your "over developed" abilities. Since your "karma" is your North node, the direction where you need to go, and since my North Node is in Taurus, I'm suppose to be more earthy, more stable, work on building my own family and a big safe secure home, create finances and build self esteem, anything Venus in quality, the arts, paintings, music, modeling and beauty. Once I develop that, THEN I can tap into my south node talent and truly shine.
I've felt that I can tap into it from time to time by being able to understand subtle hints, secrets, and tap into the unknown. I can transform if needed, feel emotions and keep things hidden (not gossip) and develop strong resources for investigations, dive into the truth and pull out what is really there rather than believe anything someone says. I believe it also gives me a bit of...well I wouldn't say "evil" but it does give me "power" in that, I can dive into something a normal person wouldn't want to hear or even begin to understand because of how unknown or "taboo" it could be. I can use my understandings to gain real truth about something and with it, comes that power. I can be sensitive to emotions, and not let other peoples emotions guide me, offer advice and be a "rock" for friends and family members seeking my council. Since Aquarius are already truth seekers by definition, it really helps in this life, it gives a bit of balance by letting others be emotional without it throwing a spanner in your works, because a scorpio can go with the flow. with my positions (10th and 4th) it means I can and SHOULD relax in the home without worrying about what goes on in the world, specifically within FAMILY. My family has wanted to put me in the middle of their issues, and thank god for this placement, I've been able to walk away from it and deal with my own life, to a degree, I feel like I'm in the mob sometimes, "just when you think you're out, they pull you right back in". This statement is very true, once I leave they'll poke and pry till they get even a tiny bit of involvement, then bam they are RIGHT into my business, it's debilitating sometimes. I believe my Nodes want me to break away from the old family roots and develop my own, not be the peace keeper but instead, be the place to carry out that peace, in a comfortable home setting, with lots of beauty and art, a welcoming home, secure and grand.
Now since for me is the ability to detach from family drama and develop my own personal home to relax in, for you it's completely different, your node WANTS you to tackle the family, share your emotions not just with your family but people who are involved in your family, bringing them together and really exploring the dynamics of the family. Consider yourself the "Don" of their world, they come to you for advice, for stability, your scorpio node will not over react, but instead investigate all sides of any drama or situation and come to a complete and right answer for all. Since scorpio demands privacy, in this situation you need to forfeit that need and involve yourself. You may not live a lavish life, in the beginning, the Taurus south node KNOWS how to relax, how to sit at home and be comfortable, not do anything, and also how to make money, and spend it! This life wants you to give up that need, specially for the spotlight (Taurus LOVES to be adored), and immerse your values into the ones you love, this is not the life to live for yourself, your family and loved ones need you, you have to shine and be intensely involved.
it's funny, your node wants you to get involved with the family and not focus on your own life/beauty/arts and mine wants me to break away and make my own beautiful home/involved in arts/beauty, interesting how we're both doing the exact opposite it seems! Getting away from your true talents and following your North Node is easier said than done. Remember, the nodes want you to move away from what you have over developed (South Node) and move to what you have not developed (North Node) in this lifetime. For you, there's no time to be a recluse, that's your SN talking, instead get out and involved in your family, you'll find life goes so much smoother when you accept your NN abilities, those tattoos? that's your SN talking, "attention, look at me, worship me" so do the opposite, keep yourself humble, the studio is quite cute, with cats lol, again that's your SN talking, "stay at home and don't give your attention to anyone else but yourself, and maybe a cute kitten" and you definitely should NOT do that, no matter how cute and adorable those bundles of fluff are! Go to a family BBQ or start hanging out with cousins, remember you have SN talent with taurus so take them to see an art show! They'll love the vast knowledge you have in beauty and the arts, they'll also be jealous of how beautiful you are yourself.