Often, when a person makes me angry or sad, I cannot speak to them and say what they did to me.
I act as follows:
I am silent for days or weeks, and the person who hurts me realizes that something is wrong and always apologizes. If she doesn't apologize ... PUUUM ... Erupting volcano ... Most of the time I feel guilty and ashamed for doing this.
Another way is to attack a person little by little, with words and attitudes, until the moment I can't take it anymore and PUUUM .. Volcano erupting .. But, at that moment, I have to accumulate a lot of anger.
I never know how I will behave, but it is always one of those quotes above. And the other problem is that when * the volcano erupts * I never climb on the person, but I start endless self-aggression, I want him to see how he made me feel.
But the worst of all is when I end up in an unpredictable fighting situation, for example, with a stranger on the street. Once at a show I went, I just lightly touched a woman's arm, she started pushing me, my only reaction was to cry compulsively. I still blame myself for not reacting.
Thank you very much for your answers, I will research more about the aspect you mentioned.
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