Whoam1, I haven't read all of your posts, but I've read enough to feel that you are a seeker, trying to make sense of your life through astrology. If this is the case, one book that I highly recommend is Steven Forrest, The Inner Sky. He talks about each planet, sign, and house as having a kind of goal or end-point. Forrest is a sun-Capricorn. He quoted Ursula LeGuin (science fiction author):
"You thought, as a boy, that a mage is one who can do anything. So I thought once. So did we all. And the truth is that as a man's real power grows and his knowledge widens, ever the way he can follow grows narrower: until at last he chooses nothing, but does only and wholly what he must do."
To Forrest, Capricorn's endpoint or evolutionary goal is "the marriage of one's nature and public identity," which is another way of saying integrity.
Of course all of us are mixes of planets in multiple signs. Water (emotion, even spirituality) in your chart may come from another planet-in-sign; or perhaps from the 9th (conventional religion) or 12th (mysticism, solo meditation) house.