First things first, you WILL be alright.
never think things are not working out for you because they always are and every situation is always in your control- you decide, if you say well this is beyond my control- thats still a decision YOU make- if you say, no i can handle this- than that is what is going to happen, never let out circumstances decide how you feel, its not the outer world that matters its our state of being that matters- because THAT is what is literally creating the circumstances- not the other way around.
second, from what i can see at first glance, you have a waxing moon in the 7th house, benefics in the 7th house always mean they protect that house, so dont worry, no matter what- you will be happy in love- although because you have saturn ruling that 7nd house sitting in the 8th- this does mean it happens later in life- so thats very good news i think- you already had the bad stuff happen and now its time for the good to come in, you ARE already later in life
relax, take it easy
stop focusing on the negatives and start appreciating what you have so more can come in, you cannot keep saying this is bad and that is bad and that is bad and expect anything good to happen- how can it happen when you are constantly putting emphasis on the negative
you dont have a midlife crisis
you are not doomed in life
you dont have lack of ambition
you are not depressed
stop saying these things- these are all personal decisions about yourself which can be fixed in 2 seconds but most important- stop perpetuating them and making them even more real in your experience
from now on every day wake up
spend 15 minutes just thinking about everything that you are grateful of whatever that may be- small things or big things- im sure you have more than 100 different subjects on which you can feel grateful for, everytime something good happens- stop and say thank you- keep doing this for 30 days
anytime a negative thought comes you say: stop! this is not what i want, what do i want instead- and then think of that. also if negative thoughts come like ' o i am so depressed' say to yourself- stop! no i am not- because i have all these things to be grateful for.. and think of all the things you thought of when you woke up that morning
eventually after 2/3 days of dodging these negative thoughts- they will stop resurfacing and the positive thoughts will take over and when they do- you can have all that you desire in the easiest way. thats the secret- just think positive thoughts- about literally ANYTHING
dont choose the topics which you have been beating yourself over to feel happy about- its not gonna happen- you just dont think about those topics at all and only think positive thoughts on the topics that are EASY to do that- and you will see that when you have built up this positive thought-momentum- than after a while, even those topics that had you depressed and crying for 14857 hours for- it will be easy for those topics to think good thoughts of because our brains operate this way, they will do what you train them to do- if you train them to be sad and without motivation and depressed- they will do that- but you can do it the other way around as well
good luck and stop the drama- all is well and you know it, its always you that can control every single thing, just stop saying that you cant and everything will turn around
