I'm not sure why if I have a dominant saturn and moon in capricorn. As you can see there
https://carta-natal.es/archivos/cartas/cn_ef1dcb84385f6eb22543e04102e20097.png
Maybe is because of the Sun-saturn square and sun-neptune opposition besides that venus-jupiter opposition?
Accomplishing my duties have been a big deal this last years; I ponder inmediate pleassure above long term goals. Wich carries me to enjoy my time in what I most like, sacrificing my future and personal improvement
I am so passionate with my hobbies that I leave everything else away, I can even be hungry for long tine if that lets me do my stuff for more time. But at the end of tje day I just find me making my beloved activities as a mechanical action, and it ends up that I didn't enjoyed it so much after a while and didn't pick up some srong feeling or idea from the expierence. Thus I fall down in a existencial void where I regret for that wrong wasted time, over and over again...
For me, compromises have lost their value, I have two big exams for college this saturday and I haven't studied ANYTHING by myself. Uh, and I have an appointment in about 50 minutes, so probably I'll miss it. But here I am, telling you about me no matter what, and I don't care if I fail to me or other people. Its a preety autodestructive conduct, and I know I will pay the consequences, but they are too far beyond...my mind tells me to pretend self disappointment, my heart disagrees.
In the end, its so sad to see myself wasting my life on intellectual hedonism without achieving something ideal for me. The time have been my worst enemy since I remember, and I haven't tamed it yet. I wish I could live half an hour.as a whole month, so I can make all I want, need and must. What?!? Half an hour writing this post? But How D:!?
https://carta-natal.es/archivos/cartas/cn_ef1dcb84385f6eb22543e04102e20097.png
Maybe is because of the Sun-saturn square and sun-neptune opposition besides that venus-jupiter opposition?
Accomplishing my duties have been a big deal this last years; I ponder inmediate pleassure above long term goals. Wich carries me to enjoy my time in what I most like, sacrificing my future and personal improvement
I am so passionate with my hobbies that I leave everything else away, I can even be hungry for long tine if that lets me do my stuff for more time. But at the end of tje day I just find me making my beloved activities as a mechanical action, and it ends up that I didn't enjoyed it so much after a while and didn't pick up some srong feeling or idea from the expierence. Thus I fall down in a existencial void where I regret for that wrong wasted time, over and over again...
For me, compromises have lost their value, I have two big exams for college this saturday and I haven't studied ANYTHING by myself. Uh, and I have an appointment in about 50 minutes, so probably I'll miss it. But here I am, telling you about me no matter what, and I don't care if I fail to me or other people. Its a preety autodestructive conduct, and I know I will pay the consequences, but they are too far beyond...my mind tells me to pretend self disappointment, my heart disagrees.
In the end, its so sad to see myself wasting my life on intellectual hedonism without achieving something ideal for me. The time have been my worst enemy since I remember, and I haven't tamed it yet. I wish I could live half an hour.as a whole month, so I can make all I want, need and must. What?!? Half an hour writing this post? But How D:!?