Hi everyone,
First let me tell you that in one way or the other all of you have been accurate on your interpretations. Further down I characterize further your readings of the energies in this particular natal chart.
I have many questions, as you can see in the chart, but one stands out and is in relation to Neptune's transit over my 1st house and moon, and to a lesser extent Uranus rubbing on that sensitive point in my second house, opposite itself natally.
Could this transit mean a neutralization of the dissolving effect that Neptune has had on me and what I do all my life, particularly because Uranus is effecting radical changes in my personality and environment?
@waybread
Yes, a dreamer indeed. So much so that in the recent years I come to see how I have been dreaming constantly. I do have an interest for documentary making, inclusive researching how I will do this, but music is what fascinates me more and can influence my mood and get me into a dreamy state in seconds. I have all the resources in place to learn video editing, music theory, and composition but circumstances, commitments, environment work against it.
Since about 2011 have become aware that many people surrounding me were negative types, I now am very selective in regards to who I let in to my circle. The environment around me presently is very negative.
I have a constant movie/book/video clip running in my head. Becoming aware of this in the last years has shown me how I can arness this to my advantage. Once more, there seems to be a Saturnian delaying (but not denying) effect at play here, as with many things.
Always had a strong ambition to do something grandious in and with my life. This is becoming a vision more grounded in reality.
@Dubyadude1986
Moon in the first house;
Always wanted to have children. Often thought that adoption would be ideal, particularly after many failed relationships.
Uranus opposition Mars;
(Notice the tight angle on the placements of Venus, Mars, and Uranus) Very competitive that has realised the calm, slow, ponderate man is the real Alpha man, not the other way.
Jupiter in the 12th house;
Becoming aware that the only way to express myself is under an alias/pseudonym. For instance, professionaly, good work I had done had my name removed so managers could take credit. Or goes unmentioned. Have many practical examples, some spanning a lifetime, of the hidden guardian angel effect.
Here's a big one; Throughout my life I was never able to hold down a job because of lateness. Around 2008 was diagnosed with Fibromialgia because was physically debilitated, had strong hayfever symtoms, and depressed however, this diagnose was the alternative found since all exams showed nothing wrong physically. Two weeks ago came accross articles on Delayed Sleep disorders (Non-24 individuals) and find that all symptoms fit closely and explain the social-economical situation that developed in my life. Had I settled down onto a conventional career I would never be forced to face that my destiny is to create, thus take steps for that to happen. A close call at 43 years old.
10th house;
Seems to me that Neptune interferes with the drive, focus, persistence necessary to start, develop, and complete projects. Making me idealistic rather than realistic.
Uranus in the 8th house;
Attract women. Many told me they thought I was gay because of my openness not a camp appearance. The male sexualy dominant nature (Mars) is only revealed in the intimacy.
Saturn in the 5th house;
Not a father but ensure that, in spite of difficulties, have the fattest, most clean, domestic 5 cats in my village. However, give them the freedom to go out whenever they want rather than keep them on a leach in the front yard fearing that they get runover or hurt by hunters and their dogs. Money important and have difficulty making it, or holding on to it.
Mars conjunct Chiron in Aries/2nd house;
It angers me injustice or the impossibility of getting justice, for me or others, and independent of their status. Prone to accidents in and around the living environment. Opened my head many times when was a child, falling off bikes, being thrown stones while playing with others, with a nail on a board, etc. Protective of the home but in a inconspicuous, non-apparent to others, passive-aggressive way.
"Something powerfull abrupt going on in the 2nd and 8th houses" possibly relates to moving from London, to Rural countryside Portugal to my grandmothers house after depression, court and tribunal cases (London), to put in place a self-sufficient life philosophy. The fact that I am only going to be alive this once and should do what I want - not what others (family and society) understand I should be doing - has come to the forefront of a personal spiritual transformation. Adjective and expressions that describe this could be; rebelion, revelation of myself, awareness, dissipation of fog, slowing down, prioritizing, selection of people, tasks, institutions, keep my energy to myself, be truthfull, faithfull, honest, be good with determination, not be used by others.
I'm also unsure of an accurate chart ruler, possibly because there is a strong Neptunian theme/influence in several areas.
@Kitchy
Grand Square Uranus Venus Mars
As I said above these are very close angled by degree so I feel their effects, in the areas they work, in high definition. Most of my life I aimed for the stereotypes, in regards to family constitution and partners. I agree.
Moon Squares Neptune & Sun
Others see a person that I do not feel inside, in turn I would act according to their expectations.
5th house Moon ruled Saturn
Yes. And of the criticism of others. One cannot, and will never, please everyone at the same time. Might as well do your own thing since the result will come to the same.
Moon-Mercury
I attribute the liking of study and research hidden information at night, in complete silence, to this combination. Possibly the engine room for some repressed anger too.
My main question is what I wrote above but, if after what you just read, you have anything to offer in regards to the Saturn transit over this important area (particularly since it is opposite itself natally) it will be most appreciated.
@Katydid
Quite right about Sun/MC/Neptune. The analogy I can come up with is that of an engine that potencialy could produce a lot of power (Sun/MC/Saturn) were it not the leak in the head gasket (Neptune/MC). Travelling temptation for short journeys around were I live away from the powerless feeling due to not having the resources to complete project indoors. I feel bored, tied down, imprisoned indoors. Saturn has been showing me that I don't need the fancy when I can get practical and slowly nudge my project forward, and later collect the "points" for the boring work done. It forces me to use my imagination as a form of compensation for my lack or materials or tools. As I said above, the main reason I went to live abroad was a girlfriend. In England I mixed with people from many countries but very few from Portugal (my native country).
Let me know if I can help you further, you have been helping me reflect deeper on some things.