Why am I constantly struggling on all levels?

hbn_235

Well-known member
Hi astro family,

Since 2016 I’ve been in a constant spiral back to back on all levels (Mentally, Spiritually, physically, financially and emotionally). I understand that I’ve gone through an Saturn return and know of the complications it’ll brings, but post Saturn Return things have gotten worst over period of time.

I’ve ended up getting evicted out of my apartment, gone through two vehicles that ended up breaking down, my emotions have been all over the place in a bi-polar fashion, I’m financially struggling despite myself working 3 jobs bills continue to pile up, I haven’t had any fun at all or having time to enjoy moments. My depression has been off and on as well as my anixety. I’m still in a state of confusion with what I want to do in life or where do my soul wants me to strive for.

I know what my passions are (Indepth astrology, music and government) but they aren’t immediately lucrative something that’s not guaranteed constant flow of income.

I’m just in a lost state in life where things are constantly breaking down including myself and I can’t figure why I have such worst luck. I understand it can be worst or others may be in worst predicament but it just way too overwhelming for me, personally.

Is there something going on as far as transits, etc that showing or causing these issues so that way I can not only learn more about the situation but as well as get an overall bigger picture of what my soul/universe/God is trying to teach and show me what I need to develop or understand?

Thank you to anyone who can help me I would really appreciate any honest input that can be helpful and insightful.

I’ve added my Natal chart, transits to natal, and natal w/ transits & progressed charts
 

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kshantaram

Premium Member
in case helps reflect and adapt; share pointwise salient feedbacks
how true-insightful-helpful, traits-talents-health-trends-prospects-ideas, etc etc


asc lord sat with moon over own cap 11th for gains,
gains through govt, economics, research work, event management, etc,
and gains through old friends, old people, technology, foreign lands;
practical, hardworking, ambitious;
moon lord 6th calling for extra efforts towards income;
prone to arms-shoulders-ear-heart-lung-knee issues;

sat-ketu separative SNode transit moon-sat coming 1.5yr under much stress,
detachment from income-gains-friendships, pain-injury-surgery to care;
natal ketu virgo 7th, critical thinking, good for audit-quality-editorial roles,
abdominal-intestinal-hip pains, separative for relationship;
prayers to Mother Goddess, offer red flowers wed evenings at alter at home;

previous 2.5yrs sat transit sag 10th, rise-fall in career;
sat transit 12th from moon under stress;


libra-venus inimical-malefic for acq asc,
inimical venus over 5th gemini, artistic aptitudes,

stress-delays in luck-edu-romance-children-position,
stress in heart-stomach-skin issues;
may wear 0.25 carat diamond over platinum pendant touching heart;


mars 9th lord for luck with rahu NNode over sensitive pisces first,
foreign travels, toxic health issues-feet/head etc,

rise-fall in life, prayers for ancestors,
observe fast No-Moon evenings taking milk-fruits or as per custom;
wear brown hessonite over pendant touching heart;
scorpio 9th settling at 28+, rahu settling at 42+
mars-rahu placed 3rd from moon, excessive risk taking;


sun-mer-venus 4th, mer own gemini,
sun-mer lords 5/9 leading to prosperity,
mer lord 9th from moon settling at 32+
growth-riches through literary-oratory-medical-pharma-neurology-
analytical-information processing-artistic-musical- aptitudes;
analytical, good at information management/MIS,
confused at decision making roles;
wear green emerald over pendant touching heart;


mer placed 6th from moon calling again for extra efforts;
venus conjunct inimical for acq asc, stress-delays;
venus conjunct sun combust;


jup year ahead transit own sag 10th for growth through advisory roles,
natal jup taurus 3rd for advisory-counseling-singing-cooking-banking roles,
jup aspect scorpio 9th supportive of luck-edu-travels-research-occult;
jup sag aspect sun-mer-venus promoting relevant aptitudes
and domestic comforts-property-prosperity-relationship etc;
prayers to saint of faith, offer yellow flowers fri evenings;
may wear yellow sapphire over pendant touching heart;



a mixed bag, hope jup transit sag 10th helps year ahead,
while care for sat-ketu transit moon-sat cap 11th, hope remedies help;
sat return, need for taking long-term decisions of life now;
,

do promptly ack and discuss salient feedbacks how insightful-helpful etc,


wishing well, kshantaram
 
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hbn_235

Well-known member
in case helps reflect and adapt; share pointwise salient feedbacks
how true-insightful-helpful, traits-talents-health-trends-prospects-ideas, etc etc


asc lord sat with moon over own cap 11th for gains,
gains through govt, economics, research work, event management, etc,
and gains through old friends, old people, technology, foreign lands;
practical, hardworking, ambitious;
moon lord 6th calling for extra efforts towards income;
prone to arms-shoulders-ear-heart-lung-knee issues;

sat-ketu separative SNode transit moon-sat coming 1.5yr under much stress,
detachment from income-gains-friendships, pain-injury-surgery to care;
natal ketu virgo 7th, critical thinking, good for audit-quality-editorial roles,
abdominal-intestinal-hip pains, separative for relationship;
prayers to Mother Goddess, offer red flowers wed evenings at alter at home;

previous 2.5yrs sat transit sag 10th, rise-fall in career;
sat transit 12th from moon under stress;


libra-venus inimical-malefic for acq asc,
inimical venus over 5th gemini, artistic aptitudes,
stress-delays in luck-edu-romance-children-position,
stress in heart-stomach-skin issues;
may wear 0.25 carat diamond over platinum pendant touching heart;

mars 9th lord for luck with rahu NNode over sensitive pisces first,
foreign travels, toxic health issues-feet/head etc,
rise-fall in life, prayers for ancestors,
observe fast No-Moon evenings taking milk-fruits or as per custom;
wear brown hessonite over pendant touching heart;
scorpio 9th settling at 28+, rahu settling at 42+
mars-rahu placed 3rd from moon, excessive risk taking;


sun-mer-venus 4th, mer own gemini,
sun-mer lords 5/9 leading to prosperity,
mer lord 9th from moon settling at 32+
growth-riches through literary-oratory-medical-pharma-neurology-
analytical-information processing-artistic-musical- aptitudes;
analytical, good at information management/MIS,
confused at decision making roles;
wear green emerald over pendant touching heart;

mer placed 6th from moon calling again for extra efforts;
venus conjunct inimical for acq asc, stress-delays;
venus conjunct sun combust;


jup year ahead transit own sag 10th for growth through advisory roles,
natal jup taurus 3rd for advisory-counseling-singing-cooking-banking roles,
jup aspect scorpio 9th supportive of luck-edu-travels-research-occult;
jup sag aspect sun-mer-venus promoting relevant aptitudes
and domestic comforts-property-prosperity-relationship etc;
prayers to saint of faith, offer yellow flowers fri evenings;
may wear yellow sapphire over pendant touching heart;



a mixed bag, hope jup transit sag 10th helps year ahead,
while care for sat-ketu transit moon-sat cap 11th, hope remedies help;
sat return, need for taking long-term decisions of life now;
,

do promptly ack and discuss salient feedbacks how insightful-helpful etc,


wishing well, kshantaram

Thanks for the info but I’m just confused on what I’m reading plus I’m into western astrology
 

kshantaram

Premium Member
Appreciate the ack.

Chart reading describes strengths of the planets
and weaknesses/stresses to care, and remedies.

It is reading of your western chart,
except the Nodes have been called rahu-ketu.



Regret not a word of it has been understood as you tend to say,
do let me know what exactly not understood
in terms of struggle of life, traits-talets-health etc,
how true-insightful etc etc


wishing well again, kshantaram
 

Cary2

Banned
The cluster of planets together, Uranus, Saturn, Moon, and Neptune, especially the Saturn/Moon/Neptune connection is the problem. In my experience, this brings profound depression and anxiety and is often debilitating.

I think it is important to treat this first. Some psychologists think America has depression epidemic. I could recognize it from your writing, but the chart leaves little doubt. It is an illness, according to the experts, that can be greatly helped by professional help. If you don't clear the depression fog, it will be hard to get anywhere with the other aspects of your life. I think you need to admit you have a pathology that can be treated by professionals.

You are too young to remember the famous TV journalist Mike Wallace who bravely revealed to a shocked world his struggle with very severe depression. He had Saturn conjunct Neptune square to Moon conjunct Mercury. That was the source of his depression. He managed come out of the fog with the help of his psychiatrist. He bravely went public hoping his experience would help others.
 
I don't know but

Maybe it's time to learn about jupiter lessons.

Jupiter lessons want you to advance in life.
Jupiter: Jupiter is the planet of traveling, including life travels, and also talking highly, and reaching far goals.

Jupiter is in Taurus in the 3rd house, so your way to reach traveling goals is very stable, inwardly successful, and includes brothers in one way or another.

The meaning is you need to learn about this life area, because jupiter rules learning.
What you need to do is to come to peace in your mind.

Holler, for more
 
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