ameliakzmr
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Hi everyone! I'm completely new to Astrology. I have been told one's birth chart helps understand the core personality of himself.
So I started reading a book about the individual meaning of having houses in which signs, etc. But I have a hard time connecting all the informations I gathered. I thought maybe you could help me.
So here's a little background.
As a kid and early teenager (until 14/15) I used to be very fun, hyperactive and open to people, even if sometimes I felt overly envious of how people were able to connect with each other more than I could. I never felt I had an incredible friendship with people, even if I'd talk to a lot of people.
When I got into highschool, age 15, my personality has radically changed. I became very calm and quiet, I hated being the center of attention. But still, I had a group of friends but the problem is that throughout highschool, people always bored me. They were too much into gossiping, bullying, stupid things and I felt like I wasn't at my place. People seemed very immature to me and this annoyed the hell out of me! Lol. My parents thought I got raped, that's how radical of a change my personality has become. This is a period where I joined drama and cinema club, so I was really into art. I started developing a huge interest in litterature reading and writing my own (won a contest!!)
Once I graduated from highschool, I felt empty. I wanted to reconnect with the early teenager I was. I realized I haven't lived my youth. I didn't make the mistakes every one made in highschool. But I couldn't. I have built a huge wall that inhibits what I really want to do. I'm 24, and still feel like I have never been young and dumb. I feel like from the outside, people see me as very confident, mature and intelligent; but deep down I know I'm still a little kid (very goofy and saying silly things, lots of sarcasm) who didn't live, and I'm not mature AT ALL. I'm a bit of a capricious dramatic-person.
And this has become a repetitive pattern. Whether I'm being super open and want to meet people, travel etc.; whether it's the boring knows-it-all mature person isolating herself.
So basically, what could explain this awkward cycle in my social life ? Is it the awkward balance between my Sagittarius moon and Capricorn sun? How do the two stelliums I have affect me?
Thanks!
So I started reading a book about the individual meaning of having houses in which signs, etc. But I have a hard time connecting all the informations I gathered. I thought maybe you could help me.
So here's a little background.
As a kid and early teenager (until 14/15) I used to be very fun, hyperactive and open to people, even if sometimes I felt overly envious of how people were able to connect with each other more than I could. I never felt I had an incredible friendship with people, even if I'd talk to a lot of people.
When I got into highschool, age 15, my personality has radically changed. I became very calm and quiet, I hated being the center of attention. But still, I had a group of friends but the problem is that throughout highschool, people always bored me. They were too much into gossiping, bullying, stupid things and I felt like I wasn't at my place. People seemed very immature to me and this annoyed the hell out of me! Lol. My parents thought I got raped, that's how radical of a change my personality has become. This is a period where I joined drama and cinema club, so I was really into art. I started developing a huge interest in litterature reading and writing my own (won a contest!!)
Once I graduated from highschool, I felt empty. I wanted to reconnect with the early teenager I was. I realized I haven't lived my youth. I didn't make the mistakes every one made in highschool. But I couldn't. I have built a huge wall that inhibits what I really want to do. I'm 24, and still feel like I have never been young and dumb. I feel like from the outside, people see me as very confident, mature and intelligent; but deep down I know I'm still a little kid (very goofy and saying silly things, lots of sarcasm) who didn't live, and I'm not mature AT ALL. I'm a bit of a capricious dramatic-person.
And this has become a repetitive pattern. Whether I'm being super open and want to meet people, travel etc.; whether it's the boring knows-it-all mature person isolating herself.
So basically, what could explain this awkward cycle in my social life ? Is it the awkward balance between my Sagittarius moon and Capricorn sun? How do the two stelliums I have affect me?
Thanks!
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