FiliaVeneris
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Struggling with relationships, life goals and relocation, please help
Hi, all.
I've had a reading here before, but I thought I'd try again since at the time, I was madly in love with a passion that I thought I could pursue. However, the said passion (dancing) will have to take a backseat for now, since there are a few issues I need to address in my life.
Friendship has always been a struggle for me. When I was younger, I was more confident and a little bit aggressive, and so whenever a friend needed help I always rose up to defend them. However, the friends I protected usually ended up dropping me once I took the fall for them. The lowest points, however, happened from 2010 to recently. In the past 8 years so far, I've jumped from one abusive best friend to another (one even sent me death threats), and recently, I was abandoned by two people who I trusted a lot. To be fair, one of them is a compulsive liar so I guess it wasn't much of a loss. However, I stood up for her even when no one else wanted to believe her anymore. So it really hurt me when she was so dismissive about my mental health issues.
Fortunately, romantic relationships aren't much of a struggle for me. I've been with my boyfriend for almost 7 years now, and though we had our rough patches at first, we're doing really well right now. We're able to talk about everything with each other, therefore making it easy for us to solve problems. I can't say the same for the friends I've got and for my family as well -- with them, I always feel like I'm walking on eggshells. It doesn't help that my father's got a temper, and as much as it hurts me to admit it, he can be quite toxic.
I suppose what I want to understand is why these patterns keep repeating in my life. Why do I always attract either ill-tempered abusers or compulsive liars? And how can I make it so that the relationships I build in the future won't be like that? I don't understand and I feel like an idiot for surrounding myself with people who don't actually care about me.
Another thing that I worry about is my plans for the future. The last time I was on this forum, I was quite hopeful about my passion. However, I recently realised that I might have to sacrifice it for the sake of saving myself. I live in a country with a dangerous and unstable political climate, and right now, I feel like the most important thing that I've got to do is to get myself out of here. It's not safe for women, especially for those who are vocal about politics and human rights like me. Because of that, I can't really pursue dance anymore. I don't have enough savings and a good enough background to move abroad by joining a dance troupe or entering a dance school, even on a scholarship. I'd have to find another way get out of here. Sadly, I don't know what my talents are and what I could use in order to migrate and create a better, safer life for myself.
Could anyone help me figure out skills and talents I could use to move abroad? Does my chart say anything about that? I'd like to note that I've got a degree in English Literature and that I've worked as an ESL teacher before, but I'd rather not teach ESL again. Anyway, thank you so much for taking the time to read this and my birth chart, and I hope all is well with you.
Hi, all.
I've had a reading here before, but I thought I'd try again since at the time, I was madly in love with a passion that I thought I could pursue. However, the said passion (dancing) will have to take a backseat for now, since there are a few issues I need to address in my life.
Friendship has always been a struggle for me. When I was younger, I was more confident and a little bit aggressive, and so whenever a friend needed help I always rose up to defend them. However, the friends I protected usually ended up dropping me once I took the fall for them. The lowest points, however, happened from 2010 to recently. In the past 8 years so far, I've jumped from one abusive best friend to another (one even sent me death threats), and recently, I was abandoned by two people who I trusted a lot. To be fair, one of them is a compulsive liar so I guess it wasn't much of a loss. However, I stood up for her even when no one else wanted to believe her anymore. So it really hurt me when she was so dismissive about my mental health issues.
Fortunately, romantic relationships aren't much of a struggle for me. I've been with my boyfriend for almost 7 years now, and though we had our rough patches at first, we're doing really well right now. We're able to talk about everything with each other, therefore making it easy for us to solve problems. I can't say the same for the friends I've got and for my family as well -- with them, I always feel like I'm walking on eggshells. It doesn't help that my father's got a temper, and as much as it hurts me to admit it, he can be quite toxic.
I suppose what I want to understand is why these patterns keep repeating in my life. Why do I always attract either ill-tempered abusers or compulsive liars? And how can I make it so that the relationships I build in the future won't be like that? I don't understand and I feel like an idiot for surrounding myself with people who don't actually care about me.
Another thing that I worry about is my plans for the future. The last time I was on this forum, I was quite hopeful about my passion. However, I recently realised that I might have to sacrifice it for the sake of saving myself. I live in a country with a dangerous and unstable political climate, and right now, I feel like the most important thing that I've got to do is to get myself out of here. It's not safe for women, especially for those who are vocal about politics and human rights like me. Because of that, I can't really pursue dance anymore. I don't have enough savings and a good enough background to move abroad by joining a dance troupe or entering a dance school, even on a scholarship. I'd have to find another way get out of here. Sadly, I don't know what my talents are and what I could use in order to migrate and create a better, safer life for myself.
Could anyone help me figure out skills and talents I could use to move abroad? Does my chart say anything about that? I'd like to note that I've got a degree in English Literature and that I've worked as an ESL teacher before, but I'd rather not teach ESL again. Anyway, thank you so much for taking the time to read this and my birth chart, and I hope all is well with you.
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