VenusianGirl
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*HIS TOB IS UNKNOWN* for synastry & composite I put his time as noon just so I could create the charts!
My father passed away a few weeks ago in a tragic car accident. I wasn’t in touch with him for several years, but this is an incredibly traumatizing loss for me. I’m only 22, I didn’t feel like I had a father growing up, he was very controlling/stubborn/egotistical/vengeful/selfish. But I obviously yearned to have a father figure and there was still a subconscious comfort in knowing he breathes, walks and talks on this planet. I would get the occasional email from him, even if a rude one, still a form of contact. This is my first major death I’ve experienced. It’s scary that I officially and permanently don’t have a dad.
I could never tell if he loved me, he was always hard to figure out from a young age. Very aloof and the oddest thing is I felt inexplicable pity for him, as if I sensed him as some abandoned and neglected little boy who never received warm love from his parents.
I’m hoping you can help me understand him better, describe him, did he have a hidden sensitive side, our synastry and composite. Feel free to be brutally honest, even if his chart is mainly negative, I can handle it. I want reality without any sugar coating. Thank you!
NATAL: https://ibb.co/tDLMLtB
SYNASTRY: https://ibb.co/gSgn1Sf
COMPOSITE: https://ibb.co/wdpHHRg
My father passed away a few weeks ago in a tragic car accident. I wasn’t in touch with him for several years, but this is an incredibly traumatizing loss for me. I’m only 22, I didn’t feel like I had a father growing up, he was very controlling/stubborn/egotistical/vengeful/selfish. But I obviously yearned to have a father figure and there was still a subconscious comfort in knowing he breathes, walks and talks on this planet. I would get the occasional email from him, even if a rude one, still a form of contact. This is my first major death I’ve experienced. It’s scary that I officially and permanently don’t have a dad.
I could never tell if he loved me, he was always hard to figure out from a young age. Very aloof and the oddest thing is I felt inexplicable pity for him, as if I sensed him as some abandoned and neglected little boy who never received warm love from his parents.
I’m hoping you can help me understand him better, describe him, did he have a hidden sensitive side, our synastry and composite. Feel free to be brutally honest, even if his chart is mainly negative, I can handle it. I want reality without any sugar coating. Thank you!
NATAL: https://ibb.co/tDLMLtB
SYNASTRY: https://ibb.co/gSgn1Sf
COMPOSITE: https://ibb.co/wdpHHRg