Hi all,
I've been disrespected by men often in my life and I wonder if it's evident in my chart, and if my chart yields any insights as to why this is happening, what's it's purpose, and is there any way to remedy it/when will it pass?
Thank you
When looking at how a woman experiences the males in her life, I look to Saturn, to see about her father, and her 4th house, to see about her childhood.
Also, the Mars, which represents the men she attracts and is attracted to in her relationships. One's Mars often represents the animus,the male personification of the unconscious in a female.
And then, the Sun, which describes how one has incorporated that energy into their own way of being.
Saturn is the ruler of your Capricorn Ascendant, thus it is your chart ruler. So it seems that your relationship with your father, has a big influence upon your daily life, to this day. It seems to be lurking in your head [Sat in Aries], and it affects your sense of self with and body image. [2nd house]
Saturn is in it's fall in Aries, and it brings that awkwardness to the forefront in your 2nd, which describes your 'self worth.' Something about your childhood relationship with your father may make you feel 'less than' and not as worthy and not as cherished, as you would hope to be.
Saturn opposes Venus in Virgo in the 8th. Venus is your ability to express and receive LOVE. So something about him has blocked your ability to open yourself up fully to give and receive love?
Maybe he sent you the unconscious message that you were not totally loved, cherished and appreciated by him when you were young. It is just how you experienced it, not how he really felt. I am sure he loved you tremendously. But that late Virgo Venus in the 8th made it hard for you to accept that, for some reason.
Maybe he was very critical and distant? And you really took that to heart.
Saturn opposed Venus is like a stab to the heart for a young girl. Wanting and wishing for total love and acceptance from Dad, but feeling a lack there somehow.
The positive thing is that it taught you to work hard, to improve yourself, to reach for perfection, and to do as much as possible to help others and to be a good person. Other people value you highly, but you may not always see that.
OK, the Father is past history.
We move on to Mars. Your Mars is very well aspected and is at home in the fiery sign of Leo. However it is in the 7th of partnerships, where Mars is not always comfortable.
Mars in the 7th can bring volatility to one's romantic relationships. It also brings passion and excitement. So your partners are lively, energetic and sexy.
But Mars in Leo , when being squared by Pluto in the 10th, can be very stubborn and easily angered. And the truth about the Animus, your Mars, is that it is YOUR shadow. You are also sometimes stubborn and easily provoked. Some of that anger/resentment can be residual from childhood, where you don't feel you were treasured or shown unconditional love by Dad?
So you may test your partners, provoke them or escalate things emotionally, and that can backfire.
The Sun in your chart shows us how to resolve these patterns and how to create better, more harmonious relationships.
Your Sun is sextiling that Mars in the 7th. It gives you the opportunity and necessary skills to build up your self esteem, to strengthen your persona, and find inner strength and self acceptance, instead of being needy or clingy and trying to avoid the fear of abandonment.
Cancer on the 7th creates this inner fear of being rejected, and it works to push people away by just having that inner fear working against you.
Men can disrespect you and take advantage of you, by playing on that inner fear they see in you. They play on your insecurities and you are the only one that can stop them from doing so anymore.
Your Mercury in Libra will be 'reborn' and retooled as Saturn/Pluto moves through it transit of your Asc/Neptune/Uranus in Cap in the 1st.
You are being reconfigured, reborn, transformed and it is hard but will be amazing in the end.
I don't think you will allow yourself to be disrespected or used in the same ways after this transformation.
Tr Uranus is going back and forth over your natal Moon and Tr Saturn is going over your Uranus in the 1st.
That Moon/Uranus square is being transited bu a Saturn/Uranus square in the sky. So you will be a whole new woman by next spring.
It is good that you are exploring this issue now, about relationships, so you can put it to bed.