EJ53, I have gone to the site you mentioned and tried to give Rose an answer, but Archer Girl is very right in telling you that this is indeed not a "free astrology reading site". Because we are usually people who want to help others, we do tend to look sideways and ignore the fact that the person is asking for a free reading. It is difficult, at least for me, not to help someone out, but Swetarose should really, if she comes to this Forum, at least have a bit of experience in Astrology and a genuine desire to learn more, not just try to find someone to solve her problems for her or give her hope or whatever.This goes for every newby here of course.
When she really learns more about astrology,she will also learn to accept her fate and the bad times that she (and all human beings) go through in life.
We all have suffered through losses, pain, horrible things and she can, with the help of astrology and the insight she gets from this, help herself to overcome these difficult times. I have ,so I know what I am talking about.
Cheers, Starlink