Neptune Rising
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Hi
I am trying to understand a few things about myself/my chart and my close relationships with men. Mostly, since my first proper relationship (which was abusive), I have attracted men who seem to be my second or last in their lives. Recently I met someone who I had a real connection with, but who lied and cheated on me. I sensed this before it was confirmed. What shocked me the most was the lack of empathy in him when confronted. It taught me alot about my ideals though, in that in expected him to have the same degree of caring that I have, though I realised that he wasn’t capable of empathy. This has been a pattern repeated through my life and started with my father and his own lack of empathy as well as lack of presence, which is my lesson and became very apparent from this recent relationship. I just wonder if I have it in my destiny to meet/settle down with a faithful guy before I retire, or if I’m meant to have these sorts of experiences.
I’ve been reading a bit about Neptune as its coming to conjunct my Moon and is already prominent in my natal chart on the ascendant and conjunct north node. It sextiles Venus/Mercury, rulers of my 5th, 6th, 7th, 9th and 10th houses. I’ve read that when a strong Neptune, it will always bring misery when we live through our egos and wants, but when we surrender to the will of the universe, its better. But its almost like the universe is asking me not to expect caring, empathy, loyalty etc.
With my Saturn in the 7th in Cancer, maybe I come across as cold to others, or is it I need to learn how to express my emotions more?
Thank you for any insight!
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I am trying to understand a few things about myself/my chart and my close relationships with men. Mostly, since my first proper relationship (which was abusive), I have attracted men who seem to be my second or last in their lives. Recently I met someone who I had a real connection with, but who lied and cheated on me. I sensed this before it was confirmed. What shocked me the most was the lack of empathy in him when confronted. It taught me alot about my ideals though, in that in expected him to have the same degree of caring that I have, though I realised that he wasn’t capable of empathy. This has been a pattern repeated through my life and started with my father and his own lack of empathy as well as lack of presence, which is my lesson and became very apparent from this recent relationship. I just wonder if I have it in my destiny to meet/settle down with a faithful guy before I retire, or if I’m meant to have these sorts of experiences.
I’ve been reading a bit about Neptune as its coming to conjunct my Moon and is already prominent in my natal chart on the ascendant and conjunct north node. It sextiles Venus/Mercury, rulers of my 5th, 6th, 7th, 9th and 10th houses. I’ve read that when a strong Neptune, it will always bring misery when we live through our egos and wants, but when we surrender to the will of the universe, its better. But its almost like the universe is asking me not to expect caring, empathy, loyalty etc.
With my Saturn in the 7th in Cancer, maybe I come across as cold to others, or is it I need to learn how to express my emotions more?
Thank you for any insight!
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