Solution for T square - look for the point that link the 2 lines of the T square together and see which is the house that is directly opposite it in order to ease the tension
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Hi stephen! Thank you for your reply. Hmm, so does it mean, it is my venus in taurus in 5th house that would ease its tension? I have my pluto apex opposite venus natally. Does it make a difference if I don't have it natally?
Just now Pluto is transiting your ascendant, so this is a good time to focus on Plutonic themes about your personality, body, and how you come across to other people. Of course, it also opposes your DC (7th house cusp) so long-term relationship issues will also be highlighted at this time.
You've recently experienced transiting Pluto opposite sun and Pluto square Jupiter, so no wonder Pluto is on your mind these days!
With Pluto in your 11th house of friends squared by Mars, your keywords for friendship would be "profound transformation." Maybe this potential within yourself scares you off. On the other hand, maybe you are not so interested in friends who lack intensity or who cannot contribute strongly to your personal growth. Pluto square Mars and Saturn can even generate a cruel streak, however; so think through how you behave towards people who want to befriend you. Otherwise, being cruel or insensitive in dropping them, can come back to bite you if you get a reputation for being mean to people.
You are right about my long-term relationships being highlighted this time. And I guess, that long-term relationships you were telling me have something to do with my friends since it is by so far, the longest relationship I've ever have. It's awkward to tell here, but with all honesty, I've never been yet into a relationship. (I think it's because of my cautious Virgo moon.) So I guess, those developing, or maybe, hidden-for-a-long-time feelings of my close guy friends, were coming into surface because of pluto transiting opposite my descendant. Or, I don't know? Maybe, it's also brought by the transiting planets on their natal charts. Unfortunately, I don't know their time of birth!
And about that "profound transformation", I guess you were right to tell me that thing. I have this guy friend who courted me last 2009, and last year was the only time I was informed that he's still waiting for me. I really thought he have already moved on after I rejected him. And so when that news came, I cried so hard about all the things I knew - those things I never knew he had done for me
And I don't know.. I just don't feel anything for him. *sigh*
And I don't want to push myself either
I just feel guilty that time.. And then during that time too when I was informed, my other close guy friend confronted my other friend who waited for me since 2009. I never really sensed before that my friend (the guy who confronted) would have feelings for me. And that's the only time I knew that my friend (the one who confronted) have also started liking me in 2009 - and he just kept his feelings because he knew that time that my other friend (the one who waited) also like me.. I'm so overwhelmed with that issues during that time (June-August 2011) especially that I was also dating another guy that time that they don't even know! *sigh* OMG. I sound like a b*tch
( But of course, I rejected and avoided my friend who just confessed his feelings right after he admitted all those things. I told him that I like somebody else.. and you know what's breaking my heart more? They still stick around!
( I don't know if that's because of my Cancer in 7th house (known to be clingy) or it's something on their natal chart. I really have no idea. But I admit, I was really touched during that time. Especially when I started to have doubts about the real feelings of the one I'm dating that time.. Coz he's also flirting my other friend
And now, just this May, I had the chance to get together with my friends. And the two guys I rejected were there. They were friends again. And I feel kinda awkward around them, especially to the one who first courted me. It's kinda sad because we were more like a strangers now
He's an emotional guy who just keeps his feelings bottle-up. I can say that because, during that day, when my friends are kinda like teasing us, he's turning red and teary eyed..
Lately, I mailed him (even we're not too far away) because I also can't face him right now. I really feel uncomfortable around him. I explained to him the things I think, he should know and understand.. I ask an apology.. And now I'm just hoping that my letter would bring closure to him. It's really hard to see one of your closest friends before suffering because of you
And that's one thing I don't want to happen again.. especially now that I could sense another friend giving me special attention. I don't know! I just hope, all my assumptions are wrong.
((I don't know what to do anymore.
Btw, I'll be having my birthday on June 25.. And I read somewhere about that thing called solar return. I don't know anything about solar return. So.. do you care to tell me what to observe or what should I look on my chart on that day? Thank you!! Sorry if I have a very long post here!!